@KiwiFarmsArkavel within time youll heal, life is like combat in a sense. you fight for your buddy next to you, and id call you my buddy

idk how I'm gonna do ts physically but hugs you

@KiwiFarmsArkavel im so sorry they did that, no one deserves that man. I wouldnt take it to heart but I know it hurt. Like I said im here to listen if anything like that happens again

the amount of tears I had to pull back while trying my hardest not to cry is just brutal man

@KiwiFarmsArkavel i can understand where you come from, i like to think of it as 'taking a gamble' yk? if people dont like me i let myself feel what i need to and then move on, because i know out there someone must like me, or at most trust me. And for me thats all I need, though you could be different. Try finding the one thing you want in people and look for it, like hope, even if its just a little bit that means theres a chance

ik ik. But it was confirmed at school that I'm the most hated individual in this school for just being autistic, 7th grade was possibly one of the worst year of my life when I wore a bunch of cool murder drones stuff and obv these fake wannabe gangsters just harass me time and time again to the point where one of them tooken my hat in the bus and played hot potato with it in his group, eventually when I got outside to go back home while it was raining. the same guy throwed my N Hat out the window and said "yo get yo lice filled ass hat outta here" and throwed it at the grass

@KiwiFarmsArkavel ill try to check it out when i can, also i apologize clinical therapy hasnt helped, id suggest maybe an alternative? healing through a way of peace, through friends or maybe finding inner self awareness of solace

I never had any type of therapy at all, and I rather not suffer being in a godforsaken room with hatred in myself being inside a room with a therapist.

For me, there is no peace, there's only endurance and survival with nothing but lies and imaginative delusions backing me up

Nothing on this earth is fun or enjoyable anymore and day after day there is going to be a new controversy that decimates the only remaining happiness on this planet.

@KiwiFarmsArkavel im sorry she abandoned you bro, youre my friend now, and abandonment is a word that is unknown to people in my friends list

i have a lot of mental issues, but im here to listen

welllll, I am not mentally well either, the most common factor is depression but I don't want to go to therapy which would just make me more anguished and aggravated.

No dead post ressurections but one time I made Oracle Of Chambers Chapter 1 and it pretty much self represented oppression and agony that was summarized as the downfall of life for me :p

How to find it though is just clicking my pfp, go to topic etc etc (this is not advertisement in this place but feel free to check it out whenever you feel like it)

"another person I can call my friend."

omg.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CLRvEB_gq8U

the 3 words from a person that was there in 2022, I was her first ever friend. before she abandoned me and never returned

@KiwiFarmsArkavel awh thank you, i try to be positive despite my circumstances irl, though i do have my bad days where im down in the dumps but i try.
honestly complimenting me like this brings joy and hope to me as well, so you're also hope <3

lemme guess, you were also harassed alot because of people being fake gangsters even though in 5 years time they're just gonna be a bunch of homeless bums in the future.

or its smth more fatal

@KiwiFarmsArkavel i feel special now

I'm being serious rn, in my 8-9 years on the world wide web, I have never seen a figure that joined shortly and spark hope to others.

Everything is nothing but agonizing, brutal, cold, and unforgiving torture nowadays but you stand out against all odds.

Something that I thought I did but in reality would never happen to me at all.

So yeah, you are hope, you are positivity, and your the personification of a reality we were promised but betrayed

@KiwiFarmsArkavel i feel special now

your not special.

Your hope. - Kiwi