<![CDATA[I feel abysmal rn]]>Yeah yeah there are some munchkins that still think I'm cheating and all of that, you can that way all you want.

I got WAY more unstablistic things I have to deal with, so not even 2 days of high school and I already feel like the biggest sack of absolute dogsh1t in human history, and obviously the progressively worse mental state I get chained on isn't making things better.

I feel like I gotta take a hiatus or break on bdns but at the same time I don't want to go

I hadn't told anybody or anyone about this at all but for the past 3 - 4 years I have been suffering something called misanthropy and trust me, it's 3x as worse as depression.

And I have come to realize that psychologically torturing myself by pred catching at 10 years old all the way to now wasn't a good idea but rather a mission I always have to complete

Describing misanthropy would be extremely hard for me, given the origin of its violence and anguish.

I want to take a break but I can't, I fight battles that are still new and it's just messing with my head in the worse way possible

]]>https://browsedns.net/topic/21183/i-feel-abysmal-rnRSS for NodeWed, 12 Aug 2026 11:46:17 GMTWed, 12 Aug 2026 01:26:14 GMT60<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 06:20:16 GMT]]>@macncheese. Agree 👍
#kiwineedsrest

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237386https://browsedns.net/post/237386Wed, 12 Aug 2026 06:20:16 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 04:08:40 GMT]]>Alr
The thing that matters most is prob your gf and your mental state
I think U should take a break from the internet overall ngl
That helped me a lot when my friend ....
Do what U gotta do tho
It's Js a stupid drama after all

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237331https://browsedns.net/post/237331Wed, 12 Aug 2026 04:08:40 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:34:30 GMT]]>@KiwiFarmsArkavel have good dreams kiwi ^^

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237209https://browsedns.net/post/237209Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:34:30 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:34:31 GMT]]>@KiwiFarmsArkavel you do that. stay oblivious

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237208https://browsedns.net/post/237208Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:34:31 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:33:57 GMT]]>@SweetLikeTarmac said in I feel abysmal rn:

@KiwiFarmsArkavel I didn't. so don't make me feel bad about it. :(

I'm going to bed. Just so I can clear my head for once.

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237207https://browsedns.net/post/237207Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:33:57 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:33:11 GMT]]>@KiwiFarmsArkavel I didn't. so don't make me feel bad about it. :(

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237205https://browsedns.net/post/237205Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:33:11 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:32:57 GMT]]>@KiwiFarmsArkavel nooo :(

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237202https://browsedns.net/post/237202Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:32:57 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:32:45 GMT]]>@SweetLikeTarmac said in I feel abysmal rn:

@KiwiFarmsArkavel the fuckk? I didnt know anything.

I said from what I remember, that may or may not have mean you knew

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237201https://browsedns.net/post/237201Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:32:45 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:32:08 GMT]]>you make me regret trying to make you feel better.

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237198https://browsedns.net/post/237198Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:32:08 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:30:57 GMT]]>@seal said in I feel abysmal rn:

all that mattrs is that natalie trusts you. if BDNS users think you cheated, why doex it matter, as long as your girlfriend believes u?
feellike im coming off as rude but im saying this in a motivational tone

That's cool n all but how can 1 individual LITERALLY bring in evidence of a poly circle WITHOUT bring in info I can't show

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237197https://browsedns.net/post/237197Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:30:57 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:30:54 GMT]]>@KiwiFarmsArkavel the fuckk? I didnt know anything.

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237196https://browsedns.net/post/237196Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:30:54 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:31:47 GMT]]>@SweetLikeTarmac said in I feel abysmal rn:

do what you gotta. It will be okay kiwi

and you cheating is nobody elses business.

Tarmac istg.

You knew abt the poly relationship before (if I remember correctly) it was a miscommunication problem and eventually I dipped out of the poly sexual thing entirely.

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237195https://browsedns.net/post/237195Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:31:47 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:29:42 GMT]]>all that mattrs is that natalie trusts you. if BDNS users think you cheated, why doex it matter, as long as your girlfriend believes u?
feellike im coming off as rude but im saying this in a motivational tone

]]>https://browsedns.net/post/237194https://browsedns.net/post/237194Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:29:42 GMT<![CDATA[Reply to I feel abysmal rn on Wed, 12 Aug 2026 01:29:47 GMT]]>do what you gotta. It will be okay kiwi

and you cheating is nobody elses business.
I HATE people and society as well, but I'm so sorry you are going thru this.

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