my vent:
for the past few months ive gotten out of a very... bad... place- and im starting to have what i feel are severe mental thought patterns- i belive the last place i was in justified hurting me... physically and emotionally... i think that it feels strangely like im always cautious and paranoid being in a good home.. because with how ive been treated, i feel im not good enough... i was treated like a monster, now im treated as societys civillian... but... i thought i was a monster... i dont know- it just makes me sick thinking of eating good food, im used to frozen group home cassarole... i havent drank water in abt 2 days now and to be honest- the weight loss was from weeks ago when id go days without eating.. its not right... it dosent feel right, it dosent feel normal. this good but wheres the bad? when.. is the bad... im scared the bad will be soon... im scared one day they will take me away and stick me somewhere else..

as of now, ill only respond to close friends or people im with. for however long this will last (at max a week) it shall.