HOWEVER! Things are getting so difficult for me lately. My mom kicked me out for the third time, (first time was a couple years ago, and the one before this time was during the summer) which I don't actually mind because I get to be at my grandma's house, but when it's added on top of everything else, it kinda hurts idk.

Like, I hate my mom already. She's been horrible to me from day one. When she kicks me out, there's a LOT of yelling and screaming and I just have to sit there and take it. I try not to say anything to her but sometimes I can't help it because she's dumb as hell. I hate her. On top of that, school started. I'm possibly the most hated person in my grade. I hae no friends and do absolutely everything alone. I don't even have anyone to talk to. My only friend from last year [censored] moved schools and I feel miserable. I have art second semester though, so I'll get to see my favourite teacher. Gym is kind of fun because we play football a lot. I don't like lifting though. Things that once felt certain in my life are the things I'm losing most of my grip on. I feel like I'm losng everything. All I do is overthink every single thing, and overreact as a result. I don't want to lose the little bit of good I have left. It's scary.

Anyways. I just feel lost. I don't know what to do. I just had to get this out of me. Don't give me pity. I just want to thank you for your time if you've read my little rant here.