hey, we dont really know each other but- i hope you're doing somewhat better now? i understand how hard it can get. I'm not going to say i've lived what you have because no one can ever truly understand another's pain , but from what you've described on here- it sounds all too familiar to mine. you're not alone in this and never will be. my only words of advice are: dont run. if they catch you, life WILL become hell. call the cops. let them handle it. make sure you have enough evidence of physical and mental harm as possible. focus on the physical if they ask- because i'll be so honest. the cops couldn't care LESS. about the mental aspect. thats not their department. they leave that job to the judge,the lawyer, and the therapist. their main specialty in helping you get out - is the physical harm. think it over for a good long time before you press that call button though. i have a sister, and my hardest part was thinking about what would happen to her if i got out and she didnt. do your legal research on a browser they cant find. stay safe. you can survive this. you're very strong for dealing with it for as long as you have.