I know they aren't on here or in this world and i miss them so damn much i probably shouldn't be venting on here because i know how people are on here sometimes To them- im so sorry i couldn't see it sooner I miss you so much and it hurts everyday Your gone now I miss you man Im so thankful i had you i took you for granted and now its [censored] over too soon for you its been almost 4 months. You forgot everything who i was your family your friends. then your gone I thought you were ok then you did it again this time it didn't fail you ended it. Im so sorry a few days ago or a wee ago i dont remember i broke down in class i probably looked so ugly crying you would say to me man but its over I miss you so so much i cant focus on anything soccer, schhool, family, friends, i do therapy but it only helps so much. hearing people constantly talk about it I hate it its a silent battle everyday and i act like im ok joking around, saying i love everyone i cant love myself now it hurts somedays its ok others i want to do what you do. im sad im crying im hurt, im weak for this i cant be a man crying like this but i cant help it i dont know i barley talk to anyone because i feel like if i do its pointless and it will ventuly talk abut you. i miss you man i dont kmow anymore