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[AriLuvsG59]

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Idk what to do anymore with my mom, she gave me to my grandparents, that wasn't a problem at first, but she still drank and used, she gave me my first drink in 5TH grade, at first it was just alcohol, then nicotine, when I started using nicotine she started getting upset with me when SHE would personally hand me stuff, I then moved onto 420, that's when I numbed out the pain from my mother, she is BPD and Bipolar, she is very codependent on men, like she NEEDS them to be happy, she goes from one guy to the next within days. After I got sent to alternative school, I t was no longer just 420 and alcohol, it was now Xanax along with alcohol to get f-d up. Then I ran away, met a guy who i thought I could trust, he laced me. With a very heavy drug called PCP, and a s3x drug, i then got hooked on the PCP, it was the only way I could mellow out my life at the time, when I was off of it, I was violent, not just throwing stuff, physically fighting someone. I went to a RTC and when I got out I immediately went back to drugs. Finally, I went to rehab, where I got better. (I hit 6 months on the 9th!) But my mom still uses, and basically waves it in my face. I don't know what to do anymore, she moved several hours away, and when I say she's codependent it's BAD, even if I ask her to see her OWN DAUGHTER, she has to ask the man in her life, if he says no she wont see me cuz she's to scared to lose him. It really sucks cuz my mom's probably using other stuff as well. Idk what to do with her, she's still my mom but I cant jeopardize my mental health and/or sobriety.
Idk if this will get taken down because of certain topics, if it does it's okay, I understand.

[Mickey Munch]

I'm really sorry your going through that, thats not okay and its not your fault.

[AriLuvsG59]

@Mickey-[censored] thank you. Its just hard.

[FlavPlaz45129]

I'm sorry you're going through that, i hope things get better.

[AriLuvsG59]

@FlavPlaz45129 thank you, I hope so too.