me when i lie:
@ myself-

i'll be taking a break til Sunday. im only going to be in contact with a few ppl including painty. by for now.

@zzzz i dont understand either QwQ

oof sry

sometime around November 10th and 11th i'll be visiting my great grandfather for his 91st birthday. so i wont be active for 2 days. bcz There's no Internet at his place which is 3hrs away. but i will definitely be on here after the 11th.
@Painty @Alyssa @zzzz @tofu @AveryTheBlueFox @Birdo @Neko @odetari

so if u look in my other post, my life story it explains how i got out of depression by myself. i stopped harming by myself. i stopped everything. by. myself. but today it just...randomly came back idekw. so im probably not gonna be on here much. i'll pop in every day to talk with my friends for a few mins but i just need space. i need to figure out everything again...

NO i am not offing myself dw, im smarter than that i just need a break.

ilyt bby ^ ^

like bruh- someone held a knife to my throat a few yrs ago. if i wasnt in martial arts istfg i swear on my fkn life i would be dead rn.

@zzzz :3.

TW: suicide self harm bullying.

Whoo ! here we go-

alr, in short my mom was a drug addict wo cheated on her husband w my biological father now im here, ive 2 kid bros twins 11yrs/o, dunno nothin abt em, they lost their parental rights when i was 2½, been raised by my biological grandfather n his wife, i found this out like- December 16th 2022 2:38pm i remember da fOOkin' time !

next section:

bullied at preschool, kindergarten, became homeschooled, house was broken into while we were at my biological great grandparents house, moved 5 times, bullied each fkn time.

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moved to were i currently am 10yrs ago, my life became a living fkn hell. got call skinheaded nazi bc im 90% German, shoved in garbage cans beat up sexually assaulted n worse, so, soo much fkn worse...

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became extremely, EXTREMELY suicidal at 13, i had no one, so i got out of it ALONE. by myself. my friends tell me im a very, very strong person to be able to get out of it ALONE, but IDFK. idfk anything anymore.

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after i quit scrapin' my arms with a fkn screwdriver, (bc i didnt want scars)
my life became worse.
soon all of my friends started killing themselves. i lost over 20 people...and tbh i feel like its my fault. bc i was there n i shouldve helped them...but from now on, im not gonna sit by n watch ppl deteriorate...

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i date 6 ppl all were either toxic fake or both, the 7th was amazing though. edit: im single as of October 22nd 2023.

now im here.

i'll see if ve gotta add anything later if i remember anything i should add-

that wont do-
nuke it.

@A-Former-User said in a rant abt my ex Moses-:

TW: swearing/yelling. (bcz ppl cry if i say smthng slightly angsty-)
OK WHERE TF DO I START W DIS LIL SHIT'--
ok so-

first he kept on pretending to be my friend, He's 18, n then fucking' BACKSTABS ME sayin im a fucking' MONSTER. OH then when i did what he wanted HE ASKS ME OUT, n me, im a nice person so even if i dont like him MY STUPID ASS" SAYS SURE. (this started like, abt 2 months ago btw.)
SO like, 2 - 3 days pass evrythng ok. THEN HE GETS POSSESSIVE, WONT STOP YAPPING ABT HOW HE'D FUCK" ME IN BED, I SAY IM UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THE TOPIC BCZ IDFK HIM, BUT HE SAYS, U"LL GET USED TO IT.
UH- NO I FUCKING' WONT BITCH".
a week later he makes me stop hanging out w Painty, N THEN MAKES ME STOP TALKING W HIM BCZ HE SAYS HE'S "LYING" ABT SMTHNG. so after 2 days i secretly hand out w Painty. 4 weeks later im hanging out w my male friend Blake, he's JUST A FRIEND. Moses doesn't like im hanging out w him. SO HE SAY BLOCK HIM, i say no. ALL HELL BREAKS FUCKING' LOOSE. I END UP APOLOGIZING PROFUSELY, N HE'S ACTIN' LIKE A LIL SHIT" SAYING I STABBED HIS HEART N AM MAKING HIM BLEED EVERYWHERE, LIKE MATE STFU. ACTUALLY STFU. SO AFTER THAT WHEN HE "FORGAVE" ME, we're good. THEN, he keeps on BRINGING THE FUCKING' THING UP !! so im like neutral n emotionless at this point, SO I FUCKING' APOLOGIZE AGAIN. PROFUSELY. he ''forgave'' me. THEN AFTER THAT HE I HAVENT SEEN HIM IN A FUCKING' MONTH.
OH AND HE MADE ME BLOCK OVER TWENTY OF MY GUY FRIENDS. DO I UNBLOCKED EM HAHAHA.

sry i am just SO FUCKING' PISSED OFF n i had to get this out.
JUST IGNORE IT-

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ME AVA. HI.