I have pretty strict parents who have gone the extra mile to make sure I have access to absolutely nothing except their bullshit. On top that, they can never be wrong and nothing is ever good enough for them and if I dare to defend myself, then I'll go to hell for "dishonoring" them.
I can relate to you somewhat. If you ever need someone to reachout to and vent to, my dms are always open. Please feel free to talk to me. I know how important having someone you can just let it all out on without them judging you or acting like you're inconveniencing them is.