@_Izzy_ Wow, I'm so sorry. I didn't realize someone replied to this post. Ty for the advice, I'll def try. U seem like a very nice person, though, so you'll have an advantage over me in the friend-making arena. lol i'm generally unlikeable i've accepted it

Mine rn are Never Too Late; Three Days Grace and Me and the Birds; Duster

I love lamb. That's adorable. If we interact, I'll be using that.

yello

u look terrified lol but beautiful nonetheless

Radiohead, Coldplay, Mitski, Beabadoobee, Cavetown, Signcrushesmotorist, Alex G, Kikuo, MSI, Maretu, Alec Benjamin, Three Days Grace, Duster, Fleetwood Mac, Tame Impala, The Weeknd, Seether, Skillet, Avenged Sevenfold, Billie Eilish, Mother Mother, Jazmin Bean, Odetari, Matt Maltese, Ricky Montgomery, Mage Tears, Peach Pit, Artemis, Charlie Puth, Bruno Mars, Nirvana, Jack Stauber, Salina Killa, Britney Manson, RedHotChilliPeppers, Ghost, Penelope Scott, VACATIONS, Enjambre, Weezer, Girl in Red, saturra, The Smiths, Queen, The Strokes, Vundabar, Alt-J, Pink Floyd, Current Joys, Foo-Fighters, Hole, Deftones, Adrienne Lenker, Yot Club, Dazey and the Scouts, The Drums, Dresden Dolls, The Scissor Sisters, DJO, Slipknot, Boa, Yugo Kanno, Coda, Childish Gambino, Limp Bizkit, Conan Gray, Kate Bush, Mac Demarco, Glass Animals, Maneskin, Chase Atlantic, Cigarettes After S*x, TV Girl, Cocteau Twins, Slowdive, Beach House, Beach Bunny, Mxmtoons, Gorillaz, Memo Boy, Crystal Castles, Jim Croce, M-Flo, Chezile, Corbon Amodio, The Marias, Julie Doiron, Kodi Rhianne, My Head is Empty, The Pixies, and others that aren't coming to mind atm.

It's usually difficult for me to decipher and connect to my emotions, but there are still a few instances where I knew I was definitely deeply unsettled or upset. TW: mentions of SA and S*icide

1. My friend, who I had a crush on, committed in Junior Highschool. He never showed any signs that he would want to do something like that. I just wish I could've noticed something.
2. A girl told everyone that I talked to that I SA her (which I would never do to someone, ever) while I was stuck on a three day field trip with all of them. As if that wasn't enough, she told more lies, telling some that I had fat-shamed them or called them attention wh*res. My blood boiled and I cried tears of disgust at the fact that I couldn't do anything about it. I've actually experienced SA. It's traumatizing. And now everyone was looking at me like I had done something like that to someone else. I wished that I could've disappeared during that trip. Luckily, there were still a few that didn't believe her, and even more luckily, those are the people I had arranged to room with at the hotel we were staying at.
3. My parents finding out I'm LGBTQ. I'm still paying the consequences for it. Really, anytime my parents find out something about me that I've kept hidden from them because they don't approve of it. When it happens, I get this extremely deep-pitted and fear-related nausea in my stomach.

very sweet and pretty :]

tips on getting close to people? i'm lonely, sort of. i'm rlly bad at this.

helloooo hope we can get along if we ever interact

:( sorry that's happening. Hope you can fix it.

So, I have really strict, religious, conservative parents. My whole life I've been hiding who I truly am from them. I thought I was doing a good job of that, but they went through my phone and saw all of the tampering I had done with the parental controls, and all of my things that I was hiding from them, pretty much. Every discord message, every pride flag, every cuss word, etc... So they took me out of school, took all of my devices, went through my room, burned my sketchbook, and now force me to study christian programming everyday and act like homophobia is fine. It's been two and a half years of H, E, double hockey-sticks.

Sorry for all that, but since I've discovered I can do this (access the web on the nintendo), I feel like I can get an ounce of my life back, and I want to make friends again. You can check my bio for my interests. :)