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branching off of this i feel like such a horrible boyfriend to my girlfriend because i simply can not open up and it scares me to death the idea of opening up and her leaving me just like my ex and im so scared of losing her because she is really all i have left and i dont wanna be alone again ive been alone for 17 years and im so tired

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general tws: possible sh? ed , depression ,

though im not really on this site much as i've generally lost interest in trying to be active here i just thought i would make this to put my thoughts down somewhere. im not close with anybody here im aware and probably nobody cares about this stupid shit' but yeah :[

recently ive felt as though i've been in a slump that everyday is the same waking up going to school coming home to being absolutely nobody that anybody cares about and its hard. i keep thinking and seeing my exes and my ex bsf sm and it hurts bad and i feel like a part of me can't move on. a few months ago i fully relasped for the frst time in about 3 years and for once in a long time i felt something. my weight has been the topic of many jokes and it just isn't funny. i try so hard not to eat so ican look pretty but i keep getting gaslighted and manipulated into eating and it makes me sick. i dont know who i am anymore and im so very stuck.

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can u srsly not talk abt that under a post where a person is having suicidal thoughts its incredibly triggering nd i dont think you should be saying that on this site period, keep it in dms.

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