@Luana.vasper I’m very sorry you’re feeling the way you are. Have you tried to reach to a therapist, counselor, parent or anything?
It’s normal to have urges and intrusive thoughts that coincide with violence and g0re and stuff and want to watch those things especially if you have something like OCD due to the intrusive thoughts and actions that come along with the disorder. Have you ever showed any signs of ODC or been tested for it before? That could be one of the reasons you are infatuated with something like this seemingly unwillingly :(
you genuinely don’t see that what you said is weird?
LOL.. yeah ok
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