Update 2 (i kinda forgot to post on the day of): so i told him how i felt about like things he had said and kind of apologized for my behavior because i personally felt it wasnt valid.. then he asked if i was sure i wanted to talk to him again because he didnt want to force the relationship. long story short we had a conversation and neither of us wanted to lose eachother so now we’re good yay🥹 (this actually sounds so corny now that i type it out but wtv) this all happened 3 days ago and no issues have occured since then so maybe it was just a temporary thing. im ngl the break was freaking me out so im glad we fixed things. 10 months not wasted!!
ok i think thats about it bye bye

Update: I talked to some people and explained it better, mentioning the other times little things he's said set me off and they said I was completely valid for getting mad at those things. I personally don't feel like it was right but my friends were saying I should talk to him because if I didn't it would harm our relationship. rn I'm typing out a paragraph to send to him explaining my thoughts better.
Ik my first post already explained it but the image is how I explained it to my friends

@Ventrell sorry, I'm pretty sure the phrase was like "build a person to trust" .. it was like 2 in the morning and I couldnt think straight so my first thought was to ask him what it meant

recently ive been getting irritated by everything he says. like 2 days ago we were having a great conversation and he said a phrase i didnt know the meaning of, so i ask what it meant and he says he wants me to find out on my own. i didnt talk to him for most of the next day. tonight i tried to grow up and get over it because i love him and i try to start a conversation, but i cant help but feel tired from talking to him. this goes on for a bit, by now i feel sorta sick because ik im being horrible to him but i dont have it in me to apologize, and i expected him to apologize for something, literally anything so i could get over it. instead i finally admit he's why im mad, and apparently he already knew and its always him. i try to explain what im feeling, then he says he loves me but he doesnt know how to help (i said i just felt empty) and that he's lost himself too. but he's always like that so its nothing new. it was a short conversation because he said we need a break. i was thinking the same thing for days but he beat me to it. i said ok. now im crying because i feel terrible and all of a sudden i remember all the good things about us. he never texted me back when i agreed to the break which made it even worse. idk why im like this i just keep hurting him and i dont want to. i love him but im too scared to break the hour of no contact (very pathetic, i know.)

i feel like im in the wrong idk this kinda sucks.

ok im lying its been a year and one day.. i mightve lied about the person being my bf, but on the bright side we've officially been together for 10 months though! he went back to new york this summer tho
(btw my old account is @s4iillyyy22 if you were curious.. probs not but its ok. i just wanted to check this out again especially since its been a while.)