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i genuenly dont know how to go about this, but im not doing okay. ive been recently feeling horrible ablut myself, and im scared to tell my bf on what ive been feeling. i feel like as if its useless to tell him as ive just been having reoccuring thoughts about the same topic (ifykyk.) and ive been recently harming myself. i feel like if i share this to him i end up harming him. im disgusted of myself.

TLDR: I wanna kms and don't know who to tell/am scared to.