@KiwiFarmsArkavel theres no point, thats just the basic long and short of it. nothing specific happened. i just needed to get it off my chest.
but i really appreciate the concern. thank you.

it hurts that i'll never have that kind of relationship with him again.
it hurts because he's so much happier with his own friends.
it hurts that i'll never fit in with them, despite being welcomed.
it hurts that he has that and i don't.
it hurts that he has people he trusts and talks to them about his interests because they're shared, and i don't.
it hurts that he prefers them over me, and i know that.
it hurts that he'll never trust me again.
it hurts that i'll never know how he truly feels.
it hurts.

@RotDownMyThroat

@wobbledogs54 a fellow forsaken fan?

@limbus loud correct buzzer.

@GrilledCat hell yeah im a shopping cart.

@FORUMS motherfuck is that john forums

how does everyone here view me?
i need to make a chart because i often have trouble figuring out how people see me. it's hard to put myself in an outside perspective, so that's why i'm asking the peoples. maybe there's stuff about me i have yet to find.
:D

@Shrub aw man. hope everything works out IF you do leave.

the autistic urge to just ghost everyone and everything, despite the fact i love with all my heart, because i keep getting ignored and i feel like my friends are giving me weird looks when i cant see because i said something in a way i understood but they didnt. but they dont bother to ask for clarity, so they say something else. but then i dont understand their meaning, i cant read their tone.
sometimes i hate being autistic. i really really do.

@shrub ki ki ma ma.

@sweetgirl

@sweetgirl yeah.
i sent an appeal so we'll see how that goes.

@sweetgirl and i quote, "blow them up."
let it be known that everyone who replied to that comment understood it was a joke.
gotta love the moderation.

gotta love the moderationnnnn.
eh, im not on much during the weekends anyways so.
only downside is my posting schedules gonna be fucked up.
oh well!

@Utz7 i dont know why but he reminds me of a bread roll.
i dont know why.

@SSL98071 what the fuck is this even supposed to mean.
i require words.

what the fuck did i stumble into.

@Biblecampvictim i kinda cant since my parents are ASSHOLES and wont let me.
so i have to rely on the goodwill of others for this.