look, if you need it we have an entire post full of switch accesable mental health resources, I am fine with vent DMS aboutt literally anything, but this topic seems to be worrying people. I would not make posts like this in the future, we are not allowed to talk about the ending of one's own life or intentional injury of our bodies on here as it can be a triggering topic and/or abused for attention (not accusing you of that in particular, you honestly don't seem like that's your intention.) I hope you are doing alright whomever might be reading this, but I will be locking this topic to avoid anything from transpiring. if you need help, please consider talking to a consulter, friend or family member about it.