@Łuna Your "mom" is responsible for all this carnage as well. She's not innocent. And neither is your "oldest sibling". They both played a part in worsening the abuse that poor excuse for a dad imposed upon you. These 3 evil creatures have no right to live after everything they've done to you. Which is why the least you can do is report to the social worker about those vile child abusers and that "sibling" who did nothing about your suffering to help your true siblings get the hell away from those monsters, in the meantime. They must be spared from the very evil that has ruined you. And once more, don't ever blame yourself for any of this. None of this is your fault, and someday soon, you and your true siblings will be forever safe from this evil.