School is shitty.
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My day is already shit, honestly. I woke up drained because I haven't slept AT ALL and it just kept getting worse, and culinary was the breaking point. Being in that room felt unbearable because Megan, my friend (?) hasn’t said a single word to me in almost a week. Not a glance, not a comment, not even pretending I exist. She won’t look at me, won’t acknowledge me, and it hurts more than I want to admit. I keep replaying everything in my head, wondering what I did wrong or if I even matter to her at all, and it’s exhausting. I already feel out of place most days, and this just makes it so much heavier. Walking through the halls, sitting in class, existing in that space feels suffocating. I hate being at this school. It feels cold, lonely, and draining in a way I can’t escape, and today just reminded me how isolated I really feel. I’m tired of pretending it doesn’t bother me when it does.. a lot. And also, I have a choir concert that I didn't know about! I'm kinda ready for it but I have a way home but no way to school! My mom works so I don't know when she'll be home.
And also... just another thing. When I get home I need to tell you all the things that happened last night. It is very emotional and a little triggering to most people so I will be putting a warning on it but that's my day so far I guess. I usually don't do these things so I apologize. -
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oh my jee willikers I couldn't agree more. all of my stress is from this fucking place. its so bad that I throw up - my friends know about it too. and on top of that I sh (self harm) sometimes because of it. I also have a ton of family issues so it doesn't really help my case, nor do I have therapy. I'm trying my best here, but school really is just making everything worse. all I want to do is bed rot and sleep now.
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oh my jee willikers I couldn't agree more. all of my stress is from this fucking place. its so bad that I throw up - my friends know about it too. and on top of that I sh (self harm) sometimes because of it. I also have a ton of family issues so it doesn't really help my case, nor do I have therapy. I'm trying my best here, but school really is just making everything worse. all I want to do is bed rot and sleep now.
@wobbledogs54 Yeah, I'm totally right there with you on that. School really sucks the majority of the time. It's not that it's hard its just more of the fact that the work and the people in the building is the reason why it's so horrible.
Sh isn't always the option though and I've been getting to learn that so I really hope you stop sooner rather than later. I wouldn't want anything bad happening to you even though I don't know you much.
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My day is already shit, honestly. I woke up drained because I haven't slept AT ALL and it just kept getting worse, and culinary was the breaking point. Being in that room felt unbearable because Megan, my friend (?) hasn’t said a single word to me in almost a week. Not a glance, not a comment, not even pretending I exist. She won’t look at me, won’t acknowledge me, and it hurts more than I want to admit. I keep replaying everything in my head, wondering what I did wrong or if I even matter to her at all, and it’s exhausting. I already feel out of place most days, and this just makes it so much heavier. Walking through the halls, sitting in class, existing in that space feels suffocating. I hate being at this school. It feels cold, lonely, and draining in a way I can’t escape, and today just reminded me how isolated I really feel. I’m tired of pretending it doesn’t bother me when it does.. a lot. And also, I have a choir concert that I didn't know about! I'm kinda ready for it but I have a way home but no way to school! My mom works so I don't know when she'll be home.
And also... just another thing. When I get home I need to tell you all the things that happened last night. It is very emotional and a little triggering to most people so I will be putting a warning on it but that's my day so far I guess. I usually don't do these things so I apologize.If you can text Megan, I would. It avoids confrontation and worst case senario, if things get out of hand then at least she can't physically hurt you. Is she actively avoiding you? have you tried saying anything? I know what it's like to feel friendless, the best you can do is talk to other people, widen your connections just incase Megan just wants a lil space. I'm sorry this shit's happening to you, I wish you luck :)
