I hate this.

[AriLuvsG59]

I’m manic again, if you don’t know what mania is, it’s a big thing in bipolar 1, which I am, I hate being manic. I always do stupid shit I regret later, like cutting my hair, dying it a random color (but the haircut and color doesn’t look good at ALL), I stay up for days on end, though I’m not going tired, I just want to rest. Last time I was manic I cut off all my friends and didn’t feel bad at the time, now, I have some friendships I can never get back. I’m afraid I’m going to self sabotage again, I just need some good friends on here to talk to so I don’t self sabotage.

[sweetpuddin]

ouch, that must b awful
i hope there r people who can help yu with this irl, like tell yur friends abt it or whatevr nd hopefully thell understand
i mean if they dont care that yur strugglin then mayb its not worth bein friends yaknow

[AriLuvsG59]

@sweetpuddin yeah I get that, it’s js that I don’t know how to reach out irl

[Silas Silver]

its probably you just overthinking things

[Silas Silver]

but plus our just being unique in your own way

[Silas Silver]

to me Now cous you explained it , that is if i become your Friend, I wouldn't See it as Sabotage.

[Ang3l]

@AriLuvsG59 i can relate to this (but not as strong?? i dont have bipolar) hope your manic episodes stop twin