guys is this normal...? (vent post) TW:tr4nsph0bia, mentions of anger(idk if this is a trigger)
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so a lot has happened recently in my home life and it was pretty like life changing t4umatizing stuff
and idk I feel like I've just been getting mad at anything when it comes to my parents and brother
I get angry when my mom calls out for me(to be fair she uses my dad name/she does not know its my dad name and she is tr4nsph0bic so it does not matter if I tell her)
her voice annoys me
the way my dad talks annoys me
their sence of humor annoys me
i would explain more stuff I get angry at but I forgot lol
I just feel so angry when I am around them not always but a lot more than I think I should be
I feel such deep hat3 in these moments for them I have not lashed out at them but I feel like over time I might loose some self control(?)
I much rather be alone than be near them at this point
they always have to make me seem like some sort of master manipulator or like somehow make me seem like I am in the wrong
and they villanise my friends a lot its so stupid they blame my friends for the fact that "I think I am trans"
so stupid
before I felt like I did not feel anything negative often but after the situation I feel like I get so much more angry than usual
