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[french_fry_guy]

HEAVY TW FOR SH, TRANSPHOBIA, HOMOPHOBIA AND JUST OVERALL STUFF

I feel so ungrateful. why am I so unhappy? I have my family and it was my birthday.. so why do I want to SH again?

Ive hurt myself over 400 times. Half of which are from dyshoria getting to me and the othrr is me just 'punishing' myself. I hate my chest and my body and I hate being trans so much. WHY was I born this way?!

I also know im probably bi-curious but I cant grasp the idea of being with a cis guy. Everything I wanted but will NEVER have. How could I love someone I resent?

I just feel so alone. I try to reach out to irl friends but no one has answered me. Did I do something wrong? Am I the problem? Im just a kid, WHY am I so cursed???

I hate myself and I cant prove it but everyone I care for hates me to. Im so tired. I just want to sleep and never wake up. Im so ungrateful and such a hypocrite. I give people good advice that I dont use myself. I say dont and then I do. I am hypocrisy. I dont desserve forgiveness.

I have a home, food, family, and yet, Ill NEVER get support for who I am. This isnt a choice. This isnt MY choice. And yet, in 3 years I have to cut off my dad and maybe even my mom.

what is wrong with me?

[itscookiebear]

its ok i feel u everything will get better i promise

[vessel]

@french_fry_guy heyo twin, your thoughts are valid!!
also, you are born that way cuz, i dont know.
BUT its like a butterfly
first, you know sumths incorrect, thats the caterpiller bug thing, then, all the hard stuff happens, the evils going to be like RAWRRR and stuff, thats th hard cuccon thing stage, then one day, you will find the light at the end, and BOOM pretty butterfly thts cool badass colors :D

im not good at reasuring ppl and my spelling sucks but i hope this made you feel better :3

also twin, ill be your friend you goated
& your not a issue your really peak :D

[french_fry_guy]

@itscookiebear I hope so <3

[french_fry_guy]

@vessel thank you lol

[vessel]

@french_fry_guy hope it made you a feel better ^^

[french_fry_guy]

@vessel you did lol

[vessel]

@french_fry_guy im glad ^^)b

[Cicadasandbats]

Living as something you aren't can truely suck. Especially when you feel trapped, unsupported, and as if you are "wrong". People have their beliefs, your family has theirs and you have yours. It's unfair that they might never understand what your beliefs truely mean to you, in your case; being transgender, but you have community! People just like you, who can and will accept you for you. <3

I've been in the same situation, beating myself up over ungratefulness, feeling like I should be more thankful for what I have. Of course, people are going through worse, but that doesn't make your worries just .. invalid. They can love what they see in you, but that might not be who you are. It's your right to be upset about that. Although, being a kid, respect is hard to earn from parents who don't see you. Life sucks, but it's also forever changing.

I hope life treats you well, and even if it doesn't, well, you have others who can hate it with you <33