Okay so when i was 11 i got diagnosed with T1 diabetes. Ill admit, it wasnt from genes. Nobody in my family had it, and at that time i felt no reason to live. So i started eating terribly. it became a harsh habit. I remember trying not to cry as the doctor had explained my weight to my mom. I hate myself for what i did and i cant lay the guilt off. I feel obese and disgusting. What do I do?