hi. you may have noticed i was gone for a long-ish time span. i'll explain why here, so please be sure to read everything, or at least the TL;DR, before replying :) but i digress... so, where have i been exactly?
to put it simply, my mental health is declining very quickly and i simply had no conditions of logging into browsedns anymore. plus, i was afraid that when i logged in here would be like a hundred notifs and 10 unread chats, which was unfortunately actually what happened. i had no motivation to even go on the internet anymore or really do anything. however, i eventually just thought to myself "fuck it we ball" and logged in... and oh god. everything i feared just happened.
some of my friends left (like @Ameris_Blizz and @seth), some are still here, but they're either highly inactive to the point i cannot talk to them properly like i wish i could, or they have some other condition not allowing them to have a proper chat (like being timeouted every 20 minutes or lagging out or having limited internet access or whatever else).
i really missed a lot of stuff, and i regret that. i truly do. i dont even recognize this site as the same anymore. i might be being dramatic but really, put yourself in my shoes. so you know, why even bother? why even stay here anymore?
plus, the only reason i even used this website as much is because 1) my other socials were out of reach (like discord and tumblr) and this was the only place i could reach my online friends atm, or 2) the interface was extremely easy to use. but besides that, nothing is really worth it anymore. and no, i wont be joining mppc anytime soon, sorry. im not losing my time with any of that.
yeah, you guessed it from the title, i might be leaving. after all, a considerable amount of the people i cared about and used to hang out with are gone. you could argue that of course, there's still others like swaggy or power or leelee or kiwi or L0S3r or miso or god knows who else, but idek if they'll even miss me that much lmao. im not gonna leave IMMEDIATELY per se, but im seriously thinking on it
my best friend also uses this site but he's not even active after our last convo. which mind you was 12 days ago. so yeah
on a bonus completely unrelated note, im really really really REALLY glad im not staff on this site anymore. dont get me wrong but it would be really time consuming and there was no way in hell i could hit the activity log quota in my current state, or even do anything properly if i became a global. and you know what? now i realized im kinda glad for not being one. im actually better off being a regular goofball on this site.
TL;DR: i couldn't log in because of certain issues irl, thinking on leaving this site soon, and im glad for not being a mod anymore (no hate to the actual staff ofc).
holy yapatron uh. yeah. also, just to say it: please do not be rude in replies, since im currently going through shit and thatd be the last thing id want to see atm 
that's all folks. stay safe out there
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