VENT TW:SH SA

Ria

i am going to post this in sections due to browser time out. usually i am all happy on here, but i feel i really need to get this out, as i feel really shitty about life. i will post in spoilers just in case people could be triggered. i will also just jump right into it. for legal reasons i cant mention names or places and will use abbreviations to refer to people

I am Ria 15F

Ria

1. i am adopted. This is a whole story i could jump in, but not right now, all that is relevat is that i have 4 siblings
oldest is a half sibling related through mother who we will refer to as J.
J is 25M
then we have S who is 17M
then me, 15F
then B 13F
then A 12F
both me and A live together with our Aunties who are- to us- mum and mam. she doesnt know about the adoption.
nobody knew about B and A until it was too late and they had lived with bio parents for 1 ½ years (B) and 6 months (A)
you can tell by observing all of us how long we spent with them.
B is extremely autistic to the point its visual
A is extremely autistic with mental age of a 2 year old
A was left in a rotting moses basket crying and screaming, and now B cant be near babies bc of the ptsd when they cry

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S+J got took about a year before i was born, nd placed temporarily with mum and mam, and then with the grandparents. mum and mam were going thru a process to adopt sam when they found out i was coming and did the process fo me too. they took me home 5 days after birth. then the grandparents took sam when i was 2.

Ria

UPDATING SOON- I AM GOING OUT FOR A BIT

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anyways, when i was 5, and J was 15, he showed me his yk what and tried to make a move on me, and when i tried to tell my parents, he gaslit me, but S was in the room and defended me, but only said about the indecent exposure thing, and my parents believed and reported it to social services, but my grandparents didnt. i remember this deeply, and noone has mentioned this to me ever until a few months ago, i was asked by my parents if i remember any incidents with J. I said why, and they couldnt tell me why. withoutmy knowledge, mam put the voice recording down and told me this was serious. so i told them what i remembered. they asked me if i know what i was wearing. i said my pink mlp pjs with twilight sparkle on the top. I asked why. They said that the police called to ensure mine and A's safety, and informed them that J was on remand in custody and was in big trouble. i asked why, they couldnt say. it was only when i did my police statement a month later that i found out that S had reported him of SA over the span of 10 years.
the one thing about that incident that always stuck with me was "why did he make a move when S was there? Why wasnt he scared he would tell on him." Now I know, J already knew S was too scared to say anything.

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when i was 12, a teacher assaulted me, and the school had it on camera and deleted the footage to cover their own backsides

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I was sa'd at 13 while at someones house party with some friends, who had gotten drunk and left me, alone
only my best friend knew, and that was only because when i took a pregnancy test, i took it at hers so my parents wouldnt know, and she found me cryimg on the bathroom floor, and she told her mum who is like my auntie to me, and i layered up on clothes and stayed at hers while i made a decision. i eventually decided to get an [censored], and she booked me in at a private clinic, but 2 days before the appointment, i woke up in my friend's bed like a dam of blood exploded out of me, screaming in agony and fear, with her next to me cuddling into me while screaming for her mum and trying to comfort me, as we both didnt know what was going on. her mum rushed in and started crying and geve me a big hug. she rcarried me into the bathroom and helped me into the shower, where i just sat, watching the blood rush down the drain, about to find out id just had a miscarriage

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@Ria said in VENT TW:SH SA:

I was sa'd at 13 while at someones house party with some friends, who had gotten drunk and left me, alone
only my best friend knew, and that was only because when i took a pregnancy test, i took it at hers so my parents wouldnt know, and she found me cryimg on the bathroom floor, and she told her mum who is like my auntie to me, and i layered up on clothes and stayed at hers while i made a decision. i eventually decided to get an [censored], and she booked me in at a private clinic, but 2 days before the appointment, i woke up in my friend's bed like a dam of blood exploded out of me, screaming in agony and fear, with her next to me cuddling into me while screaming for her mum and trying to comfort me, as we both didnt know what was going on. her mum rushed in and started crying and geve me a big hug. she rcarried me into the bathroom and helped me into the shower, where i just sat, watching the blood rush down the drain, about to find out id just had a miscarriage

Uhhhhh I'm just gonna lock this topic up, it's getting a little dark