I mean this in the most lighthearted, least disrespectful way possible, but you actually do need help. This is just plain larping and self indulgence. I know this stems from dysphoria and poor mental health. Ive been there too and I know how it is, I'm still even trying to recover and help myself. But this genuinely isn't healthy. You're not a Roblox character and you're not in forsaken. I'm sorry, but you really should seek professional help or speak with someone you can at least trust.
I'm also not sure if you're doing this for fun or not, or if you're actually being serious. However, if you're genuinely going crazy and larping as a way to cope, this isn't healthy. :(

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