my time here
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@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel i feel special now
I'm being serious rn, in my 8-9 years on the world wide web, I have never seen a figure that joined shortly and spark hope to others.
Everything is nothing but agonizing, brutal, cold, and unforgiving torture nowadays but you stand out against all odds.
Something that I thought I did but in reality would never happen to me at all.
So yeah, you are hope, you are positivity, and your the personification of a reality we were promised but betrayed
@KiwiFarmsArkavel awh thank you, i try to be positive despite my circumstances irl, though i do have my bad days where im down in the dumps but i try.
honestly complimenting me like this brings joy and hope to me as well, so you're also hope <3𝑾̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅ 𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒆̲̅ 𝒊̲̅𝒏̲̅𝒌̲̅ 𝑰̲̅ 𝒔̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒘̲̅, 𝑰̲̅ 𝒄̲̅𝒂̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒚̲̅ 𝒚̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒖̲̅𝒓̲̅ 𝒘̲̅𝒆̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒈̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒕̲̅.
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@KiwiFarmsArkavel awh thank you, i try to be positive despite my circumstances irl, though i do have my bad days where im down in the dumps but i try.
honestly complimenting me like this brings joy and hope to me as well, so you're also hope <3@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel awh thank you, i try to be positive despite my circumstances irl, though i do have my bad days where im down in the dumps but i try.
honestly complimenting me like this brings joy and hope to me as well, so you're also hope <3lemme guess, you were also harassed alot because of people being fake gangsters even though in 5 years time they're just gonna be a bunch of homeless bums in the future.
or its smth more fatal
W kiwi
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@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel awh thank you, i try to be positive despite my circumstances irl, though i do have my bad days where im down in the dumps but i try.
honestly complimenting me like this brings joy and hope to me as well, so you're also hope <3lemme guess, you were also harassed alot because of people being fake gangsters even though in 5 years time they're just gonna be a bunch of homeless bums in the future.
or its smth more fatal
@KiwiFarmsArkavel not really, mostly everyone ive ever met is downright bad people and then theres the chill ppl im close with. I cant even talk about the things that have happened on here, and those bad people include my family and most if not all of my ex-friends and exes. Instead of becoming like them I decided to move on from it all, and try my best to heal even while im still in a bad environment with no way out until im 17-18. I'd rather be someone people can rely on, someone chill and trustworthy, hope. And honestly having you comment on my post like this makes me realize there is other hope out there, another person I can call my friend.
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@athea love u tooo
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"another person I can call my friend."
omg.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CLRvEB_gq8U
the 3 words from a person that was there in 2022, I was her first ever friend. before she abandoned me and never returned
W kiwi
Your local goober that looks at your window
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"another person I can call my friend."
omg.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CLRvEB_gq8U
the 3 words from a person that was there in 2022, I was her first ever friend. before she abandoned me and never returned
@KiwiFarmsArkavel im sorry she abandoned you bro, youre my friend now, and abandonment is a word that is unknown to people in my friends list
𝑾̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅ 𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒆̲̅ 𝒊̲̅𝒏̲̅𝒌̲̅ 𝑰̲̅ 𝒔̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒘̲̅, 𝑰̲̅ 𝒄̲̅𝒂̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒚̲̅ 𝒚̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒖̲̅𝒓̲̅ 𝒘̲̅𝒆̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒈̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒕̲̅.
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@KiwiFarmsArkavel im sorry she abandoned you bro, youre my friend now, and abandonment is a word that is unknown to people in my friends list
i have a lot of mental issues, but im here to listen
𝑾̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅ 𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒆̲̅ 𝒊̲̅𝒏̲̅𝒌̲̅ 𝑰̲̅ 𝒔̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒘̲̅, 𝑰̲̅ 𝒄̲̅𝒂̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒚̲̅ 𝒚̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒖̲̅𝒓̲̅ 𝒘̲̅𝒆̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒈̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒕̲̅.
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@cv7mp said in my time here:
i have a lot of mental issues, but im here to listen
welllll, I am not mentally well either, the most common factor is depression but I don't want to go to therapy which would just make me more anguished and aggravated.
No dead post ressurections but one time I made Oracle Of Chambers Chapter 1 and it pretty much self represented oppression and agony that was summarized as the downfall of life for me :p
How to find it though is just clicking my pfp, go to topic etc etc (this is not advertisement in this place but feel free to check it out whenever you feel like it)
W kiwi
Your local goober that looks at your window
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@cv7mp said in my time here:
i have a lot of mental issues, but im here to listen
welllll, I am not mentally well either, the most common factor is depression but I don't want to go to therapy which would just make me more anguished and aggravated.
No dead post ressurections but one time I made Oracle Of Chambers Chapter 1 and it pretty much self represented oppression and agony that was summarized as the downfall of life for me :p
How to find it though is just clicking my pfp, go to topic etc etc (this is not advertisement in this place but feel free to check it out whenever you feel like it)
@KiwiFarmsArkavel ill try to check it out when i can, also i apologize clinical therapy hasnt helped, id suggest maybe an alternative? healing through a way of peace, through friends or maybe finding inner self awareness of solace
𝑾̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅ 𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒆̲̅ 𝒊̲̅𝒏̲̅𝒌̲̅ 𝑰̲̅ 𝒔̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒘̲̅, 𝑰̲̅ 𝒄̲̅𝒂̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒚̲̅ 𝒚̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒖̲̅𝒓̲̅ 𝒘̲̅𝒆̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒈̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒕̲̅.
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@KiwiFarmsArkavel im sorry she abandoned you bro, youre my friend now, and abandonment is a word that is unknown to people in my friends list
@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel im sorry she abandoned you bro, youre my friend now, and abandonment is a word that is unknown to people in my friends list
W kiwi
Your local goober that looks at your window
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@KiwiFarmsArkavel ill try to check it out when i can, also i apologize clinical therapy hasnt helped, id suggest maybe an alternative? healing through a way of peace, through friends or maybe finding inner self awareness of solace
@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel ill try to check it out when i can, also i apologize clinical therapy hasnt helped, id suggest maybe an alternative? healing through a way of peace, through friends or maybe finding inner self awareness of solace
I never had any type of therapy at all, and I rather not suffer being in a godforsaken room with hatred in myself being inside a room with a therapist.
For me, there is no peace, there's only endurance and survival with nothing but lies and imaginative delusions backing me up
Nothing on this earth is fun or enjoyable anymore and day after day there is going to be a new controversy that decimates the only remaining happiness on this planet.
W kiwi
Your local goober that looks at your window
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@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel ill try to check it out when i can, also i apologize clinical therapy hasnt helped, id suggest maybe an alternative? healing through a way of peace, through friends or maybe finding inner self awareness of solace
I never had any type of therapy at all, and I rather not suffer being in a godforsaken room with hatred in myself being inside a room with a therapist.
For me, there is no peace, there's only endurance and survival with nothing but lies and imaginative delusions backing me up
Nothing on this earth is fun or enjoyable anymore and day after day there is going to be a new controversy that decimates the only remaining happiness on this planet.
@KiwiFarmsArkavel i can understand where you come from, i like to think of it as 'taking a gamble' yk? if people dont like me i let myself feel what i need to and then move on, because i know out there someone must like me, or at most trust me. And for me thats all I need, though you could be different. Try finding the one thing you want in people and look for it, like hope, even if its just a little bit that means theres a chance
𝑾̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅ 𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒆̲̅ 𝒊̲̅𝒏̲̅𝒌̲̅ 𝑰̲̅ 𝒔̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒘̲̅, 𝑰̲̅ 𝒄̲̅𝒂̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒚̲̅ 𝒚̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒖̲̅𝒓̲̅ 𝒘̲̅𝒆̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒈̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒕̲̅.
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@KiwiFarmsArkavel i can understand where you come from, i like to think of it as 'taking a gamble' yk? if people dont like me i let myself feel what i need to and then move on, because i know out there someone must like me, or at most trust me. And for me thats all I need, though you could be different. Try finding the one thing you want in people and look for it, like hope, even if its just a little bit that means theres a chance
@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel i can understand where you come from, i like to think of it as 'taking a gamble' yk? if people dont like me i let myself feel what i need to and then move on, because i know out there someone must like me, or at most trust me. And for me thats all I need, though you could be different. Try finding the one thing you want in people and look for it, like hope, even if its just a little bit that means theres a chance
ik ik. But it was confirmed at school that I'm the most hated individual in this school for just being autistic, 7th grade was possibly one of the worst year of my life when I wore a bunch of cool murder drones stuff and obv these fake wannabe gangsters just harass me time and time again to the point where one of them tooken my hat in the bus and played hot potato with it in his group, eventually when I got outside to go back home while it was raining. the same guy throwed my N Hat out the window and said "yo get yo lice filled ass hat outta here" and throwed it at the grass
W kiwi
Your local goober that looks at your window
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@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel i can understand where you come from, i like to think of it as 'taking a gamble' yk? if people dont like me i let myself feel what i need to and then move on, because i know out there someone must like me, or at most trust me. And for me thats all I need, though you could be different. Try finding the one thing you want in people and look for it, like hope, even if its just a little bit that means theres a chance
ik ik. But it was confirmed at school that I'm the most hated individual in this school for just being autistic, 7th grade was possibly one of the worst year of my life when I wore a bunch of cool murder drones stuff and obv these fake wannabe gangsters just harass me time and time again to the point where one of them tooken my hat in the bus and played hot potato with it in his group, eventually when I got outside to go back home while it was raining. the same guy throwed my N Hat out the window and said "yo get yo lice filled ass hat outta here" and throwed it at the grass
@KiwiFarmsArkavel im so sorry they did that, no one deserves that man. I wouldnt take it to heart but I know it hurt. Like I said im here to listen if anything like that happens again
𝑾̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅ 𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒆̲̅ 𝒊̲̅𝒏̲̅𝒌̲̅ 𝑰̲̅ 𝒔̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒘̲̅, 𝑰̲̅ 𝒄̲̅𝒂̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒚̲̅ 𝒚̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒖̲̅𝒓̲̅ 𝒘̲̅𝒆̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒈̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒕̲̅.
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every singular bad event on this timeline feels like a bullet going through my flesh, it just hurts every time. and that moment where I had to just slowly walk to my house in the wet rain wearing my hat and NOT tell my parents abt it at ALL just feels like the last remaining piece of sanity I had left had just been stabbed
W kiwi
Your local goober that looks at your window
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@KiwiFarmsArkavel im so sorry they did that, no one deserves that man. I wouldnt take it to heart but I know it hurt. Like I said im here to listen if anything like that happens again
@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel im so sorry they did that, no one deserves that man. I wouldnt take it to heart but I know it hurt. Like I said im here to listen if anything like that happens again
the amount of tears I had to pull back while trying my hardest not to cry is just brutal man
W kiwi
Your local goober that looks at your window
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every singular bad event on this timeline feels like a bullet going through my flesh, it just hurts every time. and that moment where I had to just slowly walk to my house in the wet rain wearing my hat and NOT tell my parents abt it at ALL just feels like the last remaining piece of sanity I had left had just been stabbed
@KiwiFarmsArkavel you'll find your people one day, even if its not today or tomorrow, there will be a day and that day wil be the one you've been surviving this to see. I believe in you
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@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel im so sorry they did that, no one deserves that man. I wouldnt take it to heart but I know it hurt. Like I said im here to listen if anything like that happens again
the amount of tears I had to pull back while trying my hardest not to cry is just brutal man
@KiwiFarmsArkavel you can cry a planets worth, feel what you need to, at least let yourself have that
𝑾̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅ 𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒆̲̅ 𝒊̲̅𝒏̲̅𝒌̲̅ 𝑰̲̅ 𝒔̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒘̲̅, 𝑰̲̅ 𝒄̲̅𝒂̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒚̲̅ 𝒚̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒖̲̅𝒓̲̅ 𝒘̲̅𝒆̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒈̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒕̲̅.
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that was last year but at least it's stable but at the same time not really, abandonment, digital trauma, and years of mental bullet-shots have brutally damaged me to the point of no return.
W kiwi
Your local goober that looks at your window
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that was last year but at least it's stable but at the same time not really, abandonment, digital trauma, and years of mental bullet-shots have brutally damaged me to the point of no return.
@KiwiFarmsArkavel within time youll heal, life is like combat in a sense. you fight for your buddy next to you, and id call you my buddy
𝑾̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅ 𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒆̲̅ 𝒊̲̅𝒏̲̅𝒌̲̅ 𝑰̲̅ 𝒔̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒘̲̅, 𝑰̲̅ 𝒄̲̅𝒂̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒚̲̅ 𝒚̲̅𝒐̲̅𝒖̲̅𝒓̲̅ 𝒘̲̅𝒆̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒈̲̅𝒉̲̅𝒕̲̅.
