life update i guess. (tw: its all bad ig)

[xenth]

been gone for a bit, ill try to be back.

#1 sh!tty- screaming broke up after saying "the love faded" (bih it did not, you just didnt take the time to care despite me putting in months of care)

#2 graduating in like 7mo because the school told me wrong

#3 depressive episodes are getting worse and im starting to loose sympathy and care for friends

#4 im basically a genuine loner, teachers forget to even call me for attendance.

#5 im the quiet kid, i talk when i have to never any more.

#6 50 damn things on my plate at a time because if im not focusing on something (music, typing wtv) i have panic attacks

#7 the possibility of genuine trauma mental age issues in some areas.

#8 i find comfort in being alone and realise all the factors of life that involves the world being surrounded by a hypocritical higher power heirarchy that rules over the general population. and involve me in their government bs because im a state kid, and state kids are forced to do things or they do it for you in a bad way...

#9 still coping with what a teacher did to me... not talking abt it..

in all, sorry ive been gone. my lifes down the crapper rn and ill try to be on but dont expect much..

[xenth]

genuinely feel like crap and im starting to not care about things i should, i used to care abt being nice to teachers at school now i just do work ahead and say "already did it" and put my head down

im starting to feel the damage being closer to the big 18 and when im finally realise im almost an adult, i realise my futile and dumb unrealistic dreams because my talents arent as good as others.

[TH4TTR4N5F3M_VA]

oof

[thatguy]

Uhm if you wanna yap to someone for a while I'm around if you need it.

[Evil Overlord]

I’m really sorry to hear that zenth I hope things will start looking up for you soon