my time here
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@KiwiFarmsArkavel im sorry she abandoned you bro, youre my friend now, and abandonment is a word that is unknown to people in my friends list
@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel im sorry she abandoned you bro, youre my friend now, and abandonment is a word that is unknown to people in my friends list
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@KiwiFarmsArkavel ill try to check it out when i can, also i apologize clinical therapy hasnt helped, id suggest maybe an alternative? healing through a way of peace, through friends or maybe finding inner self awareness of solace
@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel ill try to check it out when i can, also i apologize clinical therapy hasnt helped, id suggest maybe an alternative? healing through a way of peace, through friends or maybe finding inner self awareness of solace
I never had any type of therapy at all, and I rather not suffer being in a godforsaken room with hatred in myself being inside a room with a therapist.
For me, there is no peace, there's only endurance and survival with nothing but lies and imaginative delusions backing me up
Nothing on this earth is fun or enjoyable anymore and day after day there is going to be a new controversy that decimates the only remaining happiness on this planet.
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@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel ill try to check it out when i can, also i apologize clinical therapy hasnt helped, id suggest maybe an alternative? healing through a way of peace, through friends or maybe finding inner self awareness of solace
I never had any type of therapy at all, and I rather not suffer being in a godforsaken room with hatred in myself being inside a room with a therapist.
For me, there is no peace, there's only endurance and survival with nothing but lies and imaginative delusions backing me up
Nothing on this earth is fun or enjoyable anymore and day after day there is going to be a new controversy that decimates the only remaining happiness on this planet.
@KiwiFarmsArkavel i can understand where you come from, i like to think of it as 'taking a gamble' yk? if people dont like me i let myself feel what i need to and then move on, because i know out there someone must like me, or at most trust me. And for me thats all I need, though you could be different. Try finding the one thing you want in people and look for it, like hope, even if its just a little bit that means theres a chance
πΎΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ π°Μ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ , π°Μ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ .
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@KiwiFarmsArkavel i can understand where you come from, i like to think of it as 'taking a gamble' yk? if people dont like me i let myself feel what i need to and then move on, because i know out there someone must like me, or at most trust me. And for me thats all I need, though you could be different. Try finding the one thing you want in people and look for it, like hope, even if its just a little bit that means theres a chance
@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel i can understand where you come from, i like to think of it as 'taking a gamble' yk? if people dont like me i let myself feel what i need to and then move on, because i know out there someone must like me, or at most trust me. And for me thats all I need, though you could be different. Try finding the one thing you want in people and look for it, like hope, even if its just a little bit that means theres a chance
ik ik. But it was confirmed at school that I'm the most hated individual in this school for just being autistic, 7th grade was possibly one of the worst year of my life when I wore a bunch of cool murder drones stuff and obv these fake wannabe gangsters just harass me time and time again to the point where one of them tooken my hat in the bus and played hot potato with it in his group, eventually when I got outside to go back home while it was raining. the same guy throwed my N Hat out the window and said "yo get yo lice filled [censored] hat outta here" and throwed it at the grass
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@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel i can understand where you come from, i like to think of it as 'taking a gamble' yk? if people dont like me i let myself feel what i need to and then move on, because i know out there someone must like me, or at most trust me. And for me thats all I need, though you could be different. Try finding the one thing you want in people and look for it, like hope, even if its just a little bit that means theres a chance
ik ik. But it was confirmed at school that I'm the most hated individual in this school for just being autistic, 7th grade was possibly one of the worst year of my life when I wore a bunch of cool murder drones stuff and obv these fake wannabe gangsters just harass me time and time again to the point where one of them tooken my hat in the bus and played hot potato with it in his group, eventually when I got outside to go back home while it was raining. the same guy throwed my N Hat out the window and said "yo get yo lice filled [censored] hat outta here" and throwed it at the grass
@KiwiFarmsArkavel im so sorry they did that, no one deserves that man. I wouldnt take it to heart but I know it hurt. Like I said im here to listen if anything like that happens again
πΎΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ π°Μ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ , π°Μ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ .
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every singular bad event on this timeline feels like a bullet going through my flesh, it just hurts every time. and that moment where I had to just slowly walk to my house in the wet rain wearing my hat and NOT tell my parents abt it at ALL just feels like the last remaining piece of sanity I had left had just been stabbed
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@KiwiFarmsArkavel im so sorry they did that, no one deserves that man. I wouldnt take it to heart but I know it hurt. Like I said im here to listen if anything like that happens again
@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel im so sorry they did that, no one deserves that man. I wouldnt take it to heart but I know it hurt. Like I said im here to listen if anything like that happens again
the amount of tears I had to pull back while trying my hardest not to cry is just brutal man
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every singular bad event on this timeline feels like a bullet going through my flesh, it just hurts every time. and that moment where I had to just slowly walk to my house in the wet rain wearing my hat and NOT tell my parents abt it at ALL just feels like the last remaining piece of sanity I had left had just been stabbed
@KiwiFarmsArkavel you'll find your people one day, even if its not today or tomorrow, there will be a day and that day wil be the one you've been surviving this to see. I believe in you
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@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel im so sorry they did that, no one deserves that man. I wouldnt take it to heart but I know it hurt. Like I said im here to listen if anything like that happens again
the amount of tears I had to pull back while trying my hardest not to cry is just brutal man
@KiwiFarmsArkavel you can cry a planets worth, feel what you need to, at least let yourself have that
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that was last year but at least it's stable but at the same time not really, abandonment, digital trauma, and years of mental bullet-shots have brutally damaged me to the point of no return.
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that was last year but at least it's stable but at the same time not really, abandonment, digital trauma, and years of mental bullet-shots have brutally damaged me to the point of no return.
@KiwiFarmsArkavel within time youll heal, life is like combat in a sense. you fight for your buddy next to you, and id call you my buddy
πΎΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ π°Μ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ , π°Μ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ πΜ²Μ .
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@KiwiFarmsArkavel within time youll heal, life is like combat in a sense. you fight for your buddy next to you, and id call you my buddy
@cv7mp said in my time here:
@KiwiFarmsArkavel within time youll heal, life is like combat in a sense. you fight for your buddy next to you, and id call you my buddy
idk how I'm gonna do ts physically but hugs you -
i fell asleep ahh, hugs u back
