0 days... (vent ig tw for alot)

[xenth]

about 8 months - 1yr i been clean, i finally relapsed and.. yeah... idrk how to clean wounds good but its wtv... im making this because it may just be me in my room isolated for a while- i lost motivation finally after realising that friends dont matter... every friend i make in hs i will never see agian, i can never experience irl love or affection... ill never have hugs or kisses or cuddles... all due to my mom giving me up... people say "your life is worth nothing" quoting a youtuber or wtv as a joke but mine really is... i wish i could say goodbye and leave this world but people rely on me and if it failed itd just be worse... i dont like my life because its not my life... ill never be able to be normal... im one person agianst a state... my life is managed by a team of many people and its not mine..

dont really know what to say... im not that cool, im not that tall i dont deserve even the simplest things like food or water... i finally realise who i am, im a monster... maybe its all my fault, maybe my mom just... never wanted to be my mom... her only hesitation on getting rid of me was because she got money frm me... soon after i left she faked disibility..

[xenth]

genuinely just needed to get this out, if i told a therapist this id prob just get comitted.. i gen have no one irl i can trust..

[xenth]

if i disapeer or lurk and not talk dont worry, ill be alive i just need.. time to get well in the head... i have 50 things to worry about and manage and complete and assignments and literally everything... when i graduate ill be even worse because ill have no one and have to get a job..

[TwoTimee]

i hope your allright twinnie!!! i care abt youuu :33
also staying clean is super hard for those who wish to 0.o
don't stress yourself :333
ur momma a meanie btw she did NOT deserve you cuz ur so epikkkk
(hope i used that term correct: if i didnt, uhhh ur mom scks butt and she a [censored] >:(( )

[Yanderemenhera]

@xenth please open your DMs