My Disappearence

KiwiFarmsArkavel

To those who were somewhat concerned of my state being more unstable by the weeks.

I appreciate your sympathy and would expect a reason why i vanished.

The closest thing i can say is that i just feel worse every day that i cant keep up visiting bdns more often and trying to endure some MAJOR family disasters such as my mom "not relaxing" leads up to aggresion in her voice and often saying 'she's overstressed" about me just going with her in a store with my hair all fluffy.

She expects me to know where we going and make me look fancy over going to a park.

I didnt want to go to the park.

So yeah, for the past few weeks my mental state was just getting worse as it just not make me have the rambunctious energy to come in here often and i have to survive some family issues.
-Kiwi

Vanilleyy

MY TWIN!!! UR BACK! 🫰🫰🫰

freakishbat

The title of this post reminds me of a science fiction story about alien abduction
I fear for the sanity of those who are even slightly concerned about your state of being
The content of the post itself is absolutely absurd
If your mental state gets worse over imaginary problems, an at home lobotomy to remove the amygdala may be the wisest and cheapest course of action to avoid future "family disasters"

KiwiFarmsArkavel

@freakishbat said in My Disappearence:

The title of this post reminds me of a science fiction story about alien abduction
I fear for the sanity of those who are even slightly concerned about your state of being
The content of the post itself is absolutely absurd
If your mental state gets worse over imaginary problems, an at home lobotomy to remove the amygdala may be the wisest and cheapest course of action to avoid future "family disasters"

it was very rushed and if i get into detail about my problems irl, then i would probably be banned from this place.

I only told about 1 problem instead of multiple problems at once with some dark context behind it, you dont really know me at all in any way shape or form.

Oh and the "imaginary problems" werent imaginary in the slightest, it can have a butterfly effect on someone's life and knowing this month is also Men's Mental Health Awareness Month, the "imaginary problems" can reforge someone into a more miserable being by the days.

So i dont see the point of you saying this post is "absurd" when you dont actually understand the severe breakdowns i had throughout my life.

idk if you said was satire or smth but it's the equivalent of dealing with a headache seeing ts

It's also quite ironic that your saying the entirety of this post is "absurd" meanwhile your very first post has more absurdity and meaningless clutter than this post right here.

If anything, your best and wisest move is to just back tf off

AndyTheImp

I hope your doing well <3

foyodor

goatkiwi is back

Mrshitsn'giggles

Oh I hope things work out

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@KiwiFarmsArkavel you were the first person I ever talked to on bdns saying exactly ts aint tuff when my user was... interesting. My mom goes through this to because of her menopaus its for women sround 45 im pretty sure. its kinda like a teenager girl through puberty. Often mood swings. My best advice is to try helping her. If ur mom has a job and u dont and stay home clean around the house and leave her sweet notes. If u dont already get a job if ur over 16. And do

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@freakishbat What was the point if that comment cuz u look a hit mess with yo 4 followers. When someone talks about so ething important happening in their life ur supposed to be kind and supportive unlike u being a dumbass rat. Boo whatever u were tryna get to with that comment isnt working cuz it looks like u tryna get attention. and when you said u feared our sanity for caring abt him actually feared me showing u have no feelings. Aka u jus boring and basic asf. Get clocked hun?

KiwiFarmsArkavel

said in My Disappearence:

To those who were somewhat concerned of my state being more unstable by the weeks.

I appreciate your sympathy and would expect a reason why i vanished.

The closest thing i can say is that i just feel worse every day that i cant keep up visiting bdns more often and trying to endure some MAJOR family disasters such as my mom "not relaxing" leads up to aggresion in her voice and often saying 'she's overstressed" about me just going with her in a store with my hair all fluffy.

She expects me to know where we going and make me look fancy over going to a park.

I didnt want to go to the park.

So yeah, for the past few weeks my mental state was just getting worse as it just not make me have the rambunctious energy to come in here often and i have to survive some family issues.
-Kiwi

Update: So um, things have been getting worse and I don't think I can actually keep up being here a little more often from both my physical strength and mental strength.

For the past 2 weeks ive been getting flashbacks of what might have been psychological torture.

Cherry and Mars returned as soon as I returned to Minecraft after 5 years (I left due to VERY dark reasons that involved uhhhh. well I can't say it here but it hurried me alot)

They both joined my server somehow and all of the bad memories I had of them quickly shockwaved throug h me.

To describe the physical pain I had from the appearances of the 2 absolute sickos is quite hard so I'll explain it the best I can.

I felt like my ribs interlocked and all corners of oxygen was beheaded or locked.

I couldn't breathe, which was the thing that scared me the most.

Cherry handed me a book n quilt first and when I opened it.

In Tadc terms, I wanted to abstract my own self in pure fear and horror.

Cherry wrote down the most uncompressed disgusting things you could ever imagine.

Mars and Cherry planned on having a [CENSORED] with my avatar.

I couldn't take anymore so I quickly stored my console that had MC into a safe and broke the lock so nobody can get it back.

I was finally able to breathe within 41 seconds, I started seeing flashing and bright stars for almost 1 and a half minutes and I just couldn't process what just happened.

The family problem is still there but the best I can do is just be quiet and don't make anyone mad at all.

But yeah getting your heartbeat tripled and almost dying to your own fear IS NOT a pleasent experience.

-Kiwi

freakishbat

decapitate your feet and watch them boil in molten iron

KiwiFarmsArkavel

@freakishbat said in My Disappearence:

decapitate your feet and watch them boil in molten iron

<3 I will decimate your entire family tree in 700 different ways with said molten iron

KiwiFarmsArkavel

@freakishbat said in My Disappearence:

decapitate your feet and watch them boil in molten iron

The same person with -30 upvotes btw