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  • KiwiFarmsArkavel KiwiFarmsArkavel

    To those who were somewhat concerned of my state being more unstable by the weeks.

    I appreciate your sympathy and would expect a reason why i vanished.

    The closest thing i can say is that i just feel worse every day that i cant keep up visiting bdns more often and trying to endure some MAJOR family disasters such as my mom "not relaxing" leads up to aggresion in her voice and often saying 'she's overstressed" about me just going with her in a store with my hair all fluffy.

    She expects me to know where we going and make me look fancy over going to a park.

    I didnt want to go to the park.

    So yeah, for the past few weeks my mental state was just getting worse as it just not make me have the rambunctious energy to come in here often and i have to survive some family issues.
    -Kiwi

    KiwiFarmsArkavel
    KiwiFarmsArkavel
    KiwiFarmsArkavel
    Gonna Shit This Down Legion Guardians The Legion of Kiwi INVADER ZIM - The Takeover Slipper to Ass 2nd Top Poster πŸ₯ˆ former staff 10kth upvoter Banned
    wrote on last edited by KiwiFarmsArkavel
    #10

    said in My Disappearence:

    To those who were somewhat concerned of my state being more unstable by the weeks.

    I appreciate your sympathy and would expect a reason why i vanished.

    The closest thing i can say is that i just feel worse every day that i cant keep up visiting bdns more often and trying to endure some MAJOR family disasters such as my mom "not relaxing" leads up to aggresion in her voice and often saying 'she's overstressed" about me just going with her in a store with my hair all fluffy.

    She expects me to know where we going and make me look fancy over going to a park.

    I didnt want to go to the park.

    So yeah, for the past few weeks my mental state was just getting worse as it just not make me have the rambunctious energy to come in here often and i have to survive some family issues.
    -Kiwi

    Update: So um, things have been getting worse and I don't think I can actually keep up being here a little more often from both my physical strength and mental strength.

    For the past 2 weeks ive been getting flashbacks of what might have been psychological torture.

    Cherry and Mars returned as soon as I returned to Minecraft after 5 years (I left due to VERY dark reasons that involved uhhhh. well I can't say it here but it hurried me alot)

    They both joined my server somehow and all of the bad memories I had of them quickly shockwaved throug h me.

    To describe the physical pain I had from the appearances of the 2 absolute sickos is quite hard so I'll explain it the best I can.

    I felt like my ribs interlocked and all corners of oxygen was beheaded or locked.

    I couldn't breathe, which was the thing that scared me the most.

    Cherry handed me a book n quilt first and when I opened it.

    In Tadc terms, I wanted to abstract my own self in pure fear and horror.

    Cherry wrote down the most uncompressed disgusting things you could ever imagine.

    Mars and Cherry planned on having a [CENSORED] with my avatar.

    I couldn't take anymore so I quickly stored my console that had MC into a safe and broke the lock so nobody can get it back.

    I was finally able to breathe within 41 seconds, I started seeing flashing and bright stars for almost 1 and a half minutes and I just couldn't process what just happened.

    The family problem is still there but the best I can do is just be quiet and don't make anyone mad at all.

    But yeah getting your heartbeat tripled and almost dying to your own fear IS NOT a pleasent experience.

    -Kiwi

    

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    • freakishbat
      freakishbat
      freakishbat
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      #11

      decapitate your feet and watch them boil in molten iron

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      • freakishbat freakishbat

        decapitate your feet and watch them boil in molten iron

        KiwiFarmsArkavel
        KiwiFarmsArkavel
        KiwiFarmsArkavel
        Gonna Shit This Down Legion Guardians The Legion of Kiwi INVADER ZIM - The Takeover Slipper to Ass 2nd Top Poster πŸ₯ˆ former staff 10kth upvoter Banned
        wrote on last edited by KiwiFarmsArkavel
        #12

        @freakishbat said in My Disappearence:

        decapitate your feet and watch them boil in molten iron

        <3 I will decimate your entire family tree in 700 different ways with said molten iron

        

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        • freakishbat freakishbat

          decapitate your feet and watch them boil in molten iron

          KiwiFarmsArkavel
          KiwiFarmsArkavel
          KiwiFarmsArkavel
          Gonna Shit This Down Legion Guardians The Legion of Kiwi INVADER ZIM - The Takeover Slipper to Ass 2nd Top Poster πŸ₯ˆ former staff 10kth upvoter Banned
          wrote on last edited by KiwiFarmsArkavel
          #13

          @freakishbat said in My Disappearence:

          decapitate your feet and watch them boil in molten iron

          The same person with -30 upvotes btw

          

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          • KiwiFarmsArkavel KiwiFarmsArkavel

            @freakishbat said in My Disappearence:

            decapitate your feet and watch them boil in molten iron

            The same person with -30 upvotes btw

            Ventrell
            Ventrell
            Ventrell
            Don toliver Black community of DNS | JJK FANS !! future Dark Humor Club gunna Straight Gang Banned
            wrote on last edited by Ventrell
            #14

            @KiwiFarmsArkavel i dont think it mattrs whether or not he has -30, ths is literary a fake nintendo switch sociql media smh, people who brng up "fake likes" or "followers" genuinely gottq go

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            • freakishbat freakishbat

              decapitate your feet and watch them boil in molten iron

              Yougot1960ed
              Yougot1960ed
              Yougot1960ed
              Cara's followers Gathering BDNS Y Gang
              wrote on last edited by
              #15

              @freakishbat Piss off bruv

              Why is everyone on BDNS so cringe(Except for me and the people I like)
              -Yougot1960ed, 2026

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              • Ventrell Ventrell

                @KiwiFarmsArkavel i dont think it mattrs whether or not he has -30, ths is literary a fake nintendo switch sociql media smh, people who brng up "fake likes" or "followers" genuinely gottq go

                KiwiFarmsArkavel
                KiwiFarmsArkavel
                KiwiFarmsArkavel
                Gonna Shit This Down Legion Guardians The Legion of Kiwi INVADER ZIM - The Takeover Slipper to Ass 2nd Top Poster πŸ₯ˆ former staff 10kth upvoter Banned
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                #16

                @Ventrell said in My Disappearence:

                @KiwiFarmsArkavel i dont think it mattrs whether or not he has -30, ths is literary a fake nintendo switch sociql media smh, people who brng up "fake likes" or "followers" genuinely gottq go

                Judging by the amount of typos your granting onto us, I can already figure out that your under the age of 13 chud, also bdns is a full on website.

                It's not just on the switch captain obvious

                

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                • KiwiFarmsArkavel KiwiFarmsArkavel

                  @Ventrell said in My Disappearence:

                  @KiwiFarmsArkavel i dont think it mattrs whether or not he has -30, ths is literary a fake nintendo switch sociql media smh, people who brng up "fake likes" or "followers" genuinely gottq go

                  Judging by the amount of typos your granting onto us, I can already figure out that your under the age of 13 chud, also bdns is a full on website.

                  It's not just on the switch captain obvious

                  Ventrell
                  Ventrell
                  Ventrell
                  Don toliver Black community of DNS | JJK FANS !! future Dark Humor Club gunna Straight Gang Banned
                  wrote on last edited by Ventrell
                  #17

                  @KiwiFarmsArkavel first honestly i didnt know i culd be on this website without swith tht good to know, second you had the guy in the first reply i had to give it to you bit then u fumbled by saying some dub shit abt "downvotes" or wtv, third judging someone by the way they type is sad ypu dont know how dumb you sound rn all jst cuz you wanted to "get somene back" or "respond", it dont matter if im 6 or smth i cant control when im born smh, your obv corny as hell cuz first its the "downvotes" and nw its "im 12" yk how many kids i hear flexing thier age like that means smth, i bet your the type of person to flex that your from the bronx or smth when your abt to fight nd ill still bya, overqll your immature, fourth u already have personal stuff going on so why start smth, fifth im not typing ts again so if u wanna know why i type lile this then look for a post thts called "what do yk ball in" andd youll see why, sixth im actually born in the BEST YEAR EVER, seventh call yur uber pls and not uber eats cuz you prolly big

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                  • Ventrell Ventrell

                    @KiwiFarmsArkavel first honestly i didnt know i culd be on this website without swith tht good to know, second you had the guy in the first reply i had to give it to you bit then u fumbled by saying some dub shit abt "downvotes" or wtv, third judging someone by the way they type is sad ypu dont know how dumb you sound rn all jst cuz you wanted to "get somene back" or "respond", it dont matter if im 6 or smth i cant control when im born smh, your obv corny as hell cuz first its the "downvotes" and nw its "im 12" yk how many kids i hear flexing thier age like that means smth, i bet your the type of person to flex that your from the bronx or smth when your abt to fight nd ill still bya, overqll your immature, fourth u already have personal stuff going on so why start smth, fifth im not typing ts again so if u wanna know why i type lile this then look for a post thts called "what do yk ball in" andd youll see why, sixth im actually born in the BEST YEAR EVER, seventh call yur uber pls and not uber eats cuz you prolly big

                    Andyboi
                    Andyboi
                    Andyboi
                    canida πŸ₯€ πŸ˜­πŸ™ rip andy Bcv army Dead Char 🌹 Anti Cringe 🟨πŸŸ₯πŸŸͺ🟦NASCAR
                    wrote on last edited by
                    #18

                    @Ventrell nobody tryna read allat✌️

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                    • Ventrell Ventrell

                      @KiwiFarmsArkavel first honestly i didnt know i culd be on this website without swith tht good to know, second you had the guy in the first reply i had to give it to you bit then u fumbled by saying some dub shit abt "downvotes" or wtv, third judging someone by the way they type is sad ypu dont know how dumb you sound rn all jst cuz you wanted to "get somene back" or "respond", it dont matter if im 6 or smth i cant control when im born smh, your obv corny as hell cuz first its the "downvotes" and nw its "im 12" yk how many kids i hear flexing thier age like that means smth, i bet your the type of person to flex that your from the bronx or smth when your abt to fight nd ill still bya, overqll your immature, fourth u already have personal stuff going on so why start smth, fifth im not typing ts again so if u wanna know why i type lile this then look for a post thts called "what do yk ball in" andd youll see why, sixth im actually born in the BEST YEAR EVER, seventh call yur uber pls and not uber eats cuz you prolly big

                      Yougot1960ed
                      Yougot1960ed
                      Yougot1960ed
                      Cara's followers Gathering BDNS Y Gang
                      wrote on last edited by
                      #19

                      @Ventrell wut...

                      Why is everyone on BDNS so cringe(Except for me and the people I like)
                      -Yougot1960ed, 2026

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                      • Andyboi Andyboi

                        @Ventrell nobody tryna read allat✌️

                        Ventrell
                        Ventrell
                        Ventrell
                        Don toliver Black community of DNS | JJK FANS !! future Dark Humor Club gunna Straight Gang Banned
                        wrote on last edited by
                        #20

                        @Andyboi ionk what to tell you twin but jst to not be lazy

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                        • Yougot1960ed Yougot1960ed

                          @Ventrell wut...

                          Ventrell
                          Ventrell
                          Ventrell
                          Don toliver Black community of DNS | JJK FANS !! future Dark Humor Club gunna Straight Gang Banned
                          wrote on last edited by
                          #21

                          @Yougot1960ed ion think its that hard to understand, i didnt proof read it cuz i dont give a shit and i usually use chat gpt to correct my flaws cuz i type with no remorse

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                          • Ventrell Ventrell

                            @Yougot1960ed ion think its that hard to understand, i didnt proof read it cuz i dont give a shit and i usually use chat gpt to correct my flaws cuz i type with no remorse

                            Yougot1960ed
                            Yougot1960ed
                            Yougot1960ed
                            Cara's followers Gathering BDNS Y Gang
                            wrote on last edited by
                            #22

                            @Ventrell ...okay

                            Why is everyone on BDNS so cringe(Except for me and the people I like)
                            -Yougot1960ed, 2026

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                            • Yougot1960ed Yougot1960ed

                              @Ventrell ...okay

                              Ventrell
                              Ventrell
                              Ventrell
                              Don toliver Black community of DNS | JJK FANS !! future Dark Humor Club gunna Straight Gang Banned
                              wrote on last edited by
                              #23

                              @Yougot1960ed i mean if u want i can try to edit it n make better

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                              • Ventrell Ventrell

                                @Yougot1960ed i mean if u want i can try to edit it n make better

                                Yougot1960ed
                                Yougot1960ed
                                Yougot1960ed
                                Cara's followers Gathering BDNS Y Gang
                                wrote on last edited by
                                #24

                                @Ventrell Nah it's fine

                                Why is everyone on BDNS so cringe(Except for me and the people I like)
                                -Yougot1960ed, 2026

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                                • Ventrell Ventrell

                                  @Andyboi ionk what to tell you twin but jst to not be lazy

                                  Andyboi
                                  Andyboi
                                  Andyboi
                                  canida πŸ₯€ πŸ˜­πŸ™ rip andy Bcv army Dead Char 🌹 Anti Cringe 🟨πŸŸ₯πŸŸͺ🟦NASCAR
                                  wrote on last edited by
                                  #25

                                  @Ventrell ionkπŸ₯Ά

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                                  • Ventrell Ventrell

                                    @KiwiFarmsArkavel first honestly i didnt know i culd be on this website without swith tht good to know, second you had the guy in the first reply i had to give it to you bit then u fumbled by saying some dub shit abt "downvotes" or wtv, third judging someone by the way they type is sad ypu dont know how dumb you sound rn all jst cuz you wanted to "get somene back" or "respond", it dont matter if im 6 or smth i cant control when im born smh, your obv corny as hell cuz first its the "downvotes" and nw its "im 12" yk how many kids i hear flexing thier age like that means smth, i bet your the type of person to flex that your from the bronx or smth when your abt to fight nd ill still bya, overqll your immature, fourth u already have personal stuff going on so why start smth, fifth im not typing ts again so if u wanna know why i type lile this then look for a post thts called "what do yk ball in" andd youll see why, sixth im actually born in the BEST YEAR EVER, seventh call yur uber pls and not uber eats cuz you prolly big

                                    Fang_Yuan
                                    Fang_Yuan
                                    Fang_Yuan
                                    wolf pack Surge supremacy ANTI-67 Gang VIP Membership
                                    wrote on last edited by
                                    #26

                                    @Ventrell said in My Disappearence:

                                    @KiwiFarmsArkavel first honestly i didnt know i culd be on this website without swith tht good to know, second you had the guy in the first reply i had to give it to you bit then u fumbled by saying some dub shit abt "downvotes" or wtv, third judging someone by the way they type is sad ypu dont know how dumb you sound rn all jst cuz you wanted to "get somene back" or "respond", it dont matter if im 6 or smth i cant control when im born smh, your obv corny as hell cuz first its the "downvotes" and nw its "im 12" yk how many kids i hear flexing thier age like that means smth, i bet your the type of person to flex that your from the bronx or smth when your abt to fight nd ill still bya, overqll your immature, fourth u already have personal stuff going on so why start smth, fifth im not typing ts again so if u wanna know why i type lile this then look for a post thts called "what do yk ball in" andd youll see why, sixth im actually born in the BEST YEAR EVER, seventh call yur uber pls and not uber eats cuz you prolly big

                                    gng I might have a stroke reading ts πŸ˜‚

                                    Larp

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                                    • Fang_Yuan Fang_Yuan

                                      @Ventrell said in My Disappearence:

                                      @KiwiFarmsArkavel first honestly i didnt know i culd be on this website without swith tht good to know, second you had the guy in the first reply i had to give it to you bit then u fumbled by saying some dub shit abt "downvotes" or wtv, third judging someone by the way they type is sad ypu dont know how dumb you sound rn all jst cuz you wanted to "get somene back" or "respond", it dont matter if im 6 or smth i cant control when im born smh, your obv corny as hell cuz first its the "downvotes" and nw its "im 12" yk how many kids i hear flexing thier age like that means smth, i bet your the type of person to flex that your from the bronx or smth when your abt to fight nd ill still bya, overqll your immature, fourth u already have personal stuff going on so why start smth, fifth im not typing ts again so if u wanna know why i type lile this then look for a post thts called "what do yk ball in" andd youll see why, sixth im actually born in the BEST YEAR EVER, seventh call yur uber pls and not uber eats cuz you prolly big

                                      gng I might have a stroke reading ts πŸ˜‚

                                      Ventrell
                                      Ventrell
                                      Ventrell
                                      Don toliver Black community of DNS | JJK FANS !! future Dark Humor Club gunna Straight Gang Banned
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                                      #27

                                      @Cheng dang ot camt be that bad, ik i type with a nintendo and freeform it but ion think its that bad right?

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                                      • renny
                                        renny
                                        renny
                                        Banned
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                                        Great to have you back!

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                                        • Ventrell Ventrell

                                          @KiwiFarmsArkavel first honestly i didnt know i culd be on this website without swith tht good to know, second you had the guy in the first reply i had to give it to you bit then u fumbled by saying some dub shit abt "downvotes" or wtv, third judging someone by the way they type is sad ypu dont know how dumb you sound rn all jst cuz you wanted to "get somene back" or "respond", it dont matter if im 6 or smth i cant control when im born smh, your obv corny as hell cuz first its the "downvotes" and nw its "im 12" yk how many kids i hear flexing thier age like that means smth, i bet your the type of person to flex that your from the bronx or smth when your abt to fight nd ill still bya, overqll your immature, fourth u already have personal stuff going on so why start smth, fifth im not typing ts again so if u wanna know why i type lile this then look for a post thts called "what do yk ball in" andd youll see why, sixth im actually born in the BEST YEAR EVER, seventh call yur uber pls and not uber eats cuz you prolly big

                                          KiwiFarmsArkavel
                                          KiwiFarmsArkavel
                                          KiwiFarmsArkavel
                                          Gonna Shit This Down Legion Guardians The Legion of Kiwi INVADER ZIM - The Takeover Slipper to Ass 2nd Top Poster πŸ₯ˆ former staff 10kth upvoter Banned
                                          wrote on last edited by
                                          #29

                                          @Ventrell said in My Disappearence:

                                          @KiwiFarmsArkavel first honestly i didnt know i culd be on this website without swith tht good to know, second you had the guy in the first reply i had to give it to you bit then u fumbled by saying some dub shit abt "downvotes" or wtv, third judging someone by the way they type is sad ypu dont know how dumb you sound rn all jst cuz you wanted to "get somene back" or "respond", it dont matter if im 6 or smth i cant control when im born smh, your obv corny as hell cuz first its the "downvotes" and nw its "im 12" yk how many kids i hear flexing thier age like that means smth, i bet your the type of person to flex that your from the bronx or smth when your abt to fight nd ill still bya, overqll your immature, fourth u already have personal stuff going on so why start smth, fifth im not typing ts again so if u wanna know why i type lile this then look for a post thts called "what do yk ball in" andd youll see why, sixth im actually born in the BEST YEAR EVER, seventh call yur uber pls and not uber eats cuz you prolly big

                                          If your born on this so called "best year" 2016 then that would mean your 10 years old and have ZERO excuse to be talking at all. I also like how everyone else is flaming you for saying some clownish bs like this i find this very amusing.

                                          Atp just save yourself from humiliation and wipe off the post before the typos fry everyone in here.

                                          And for the love of Neptune actually take your time writing ts instead of seeing your replies as a dull-headed neanderthal with a dunce hat

                                          

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