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    Damn man, You definitely deserve a break so I get it. I hope you're break goes well. See ya soon homie :)

    • Mozuku

    (P.S Sorry if its too short.)

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    • SupearManS SupearMan

      (SCROLL TO THE END FOR THE DURATION)


      • Explanation:
        As much as this site has been a lifeline for me, I find myself in a position where I need to step away. I'm unsure of the exact reason, but for once, I feel it’s important to listen to my instincts. It might be my mental health—this site, though it’s often felt like the only thing holding me together, isn't enough anymore. I need to move beyond it, to not rely on it for my sense of stability. Another reason could be procrastination. Though I've been working harder lately, I still find myself getting distracted, not just here but by countless other things. The year is drawing to a close, and last year I was given a pass to move forward despite failing. I don’t want to find myself in that same situation again, especially with the real possibility of being held back. But it’s not just school. I have personal projects—shows, AMVs, songs, art—so many things either unfinished, barely started, or abandoned altogether. I want to finish these things, not because I feel obligated, but because I owe it to myself to create something meaningful that I can share, both here and with others on platforms like YouTube.

      A third reason for this break is a personal one. I want to be less awkward socially. I don’t want my interactions here to affect how I behave in real life. The way I act here is, in part, because I know I’ll likely never meet most of you in person (though there are a couple of exceptions). But those patterns are starting to bleed into real life, and I can’t allow that. Recently, I was called “the definition of disgusting and weird” by people I don’t even know, and it shook me more than I care to admit.

      (!VENTING ZONE!)

      I’ve been carrying a lot of emotional baggage, and I’m tired of it. My reputation has been in shambles since pre-K, and it's followed me relentlessly over the years. I’ve spent so much time mired in emotional chaos, in and out of depressive episodes, that I no longer know how to break the cycle. It’s exhausting. I tell myself to “be in the moment” and “life’s too short to spend it moping,” but I’m a hypocrite. I never truly live; I just exist, sinking into my own sadness and frustration. Too many nights have been spent just moping, as if it’s the only option left.

      I feel like I’m walking on thin ice with the people I care about. My dad recently called me an asshole, I haven’t spoken to Tommy in days, I hurt @kasanetetofan, even though I never intended to. And that’s just the surface of it. I regret so many things: I never told my grandmother I loved her or even hugged her before she passed away in 2021. I’ve hurt my crush from last year, and I fear I might be doing the same again this year. I’ve lashed out at my family, causing pain I can never take back. I’ve scared my friends, made them cry, and been the reason for several friendships falling apart.


      • Duration:
        At least one week, though it’s not fixed so it could vary.
        I’ll be around for the next two days as much as I can, but after 12 AM on Monday, don’t expect to see me here.
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      @SupearMan aww man i feel ya my i hope you enjoy your break :)

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        man sucks ur going to go for a week but at least its not 4 ever right?

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          #BDNSgang Hide BDNS Ads Alastor Supremacy🛐 jwnw's dead group red crown holder Minecraft Pros Insane Clown Posse fans, Juggalos come fourth IMA BURN IN HELL, but<3 simps Hazbin Hotel Fans insanity We <3 Gir sky children of the light Survived a near death experience (yay) Dark Humor Club Nintendo Switch Users Zelda Players gleeby glorp Team Skye big guys molly's friend Single Legend Of Zelda meow ∀ Chainsaw Man ∀ Repelli Destroyers chat-perms Spotify ig certified crackhead PKM FAN People
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          #6

          alao enjoy your brake we will be here (hopefully)

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            • Skye-chanS Skye-chan

              alao enjoy your brake we will be here (hopefully)

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              @Skye-chan *break

              I'm adding anything weird you say to the wall of shame

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                Kitty Witty ☆Has Tiktok☆ Ivycomb ~Poet~ ESPAÑOLES!!! Hazbin Hotel Fans BFDI IS BEST ##adhd short person Murder Drones Fans #MiiGang `Gravity Falls` Egg Dog Single ANTI FURRY HATTERS DDLC Fans meggy lovers OC-Maker insanity Art group! LGBTQ+ Of BDNS artist's.. certified crackhead Spotify ig D e p r e s s i o n . . . Has a Youtube Channel Dark Humor Club pansexual people =uwu= NOCTURNAL Femboy :3 Wears thigh socks Chaotic People Survived a near death experience (yay) bookworms Edd Streamer Cyn Fans pepsi lovers Nintendo Switch Users crappy roblox gamers BDNS DATABASE Merryweather Media Fans I love ferrets Sonadow Fans "Chan/San" we love miku #TRTS FNF Enthusiasts Glitch-Production Gets hated on Level I WANT IT THAT WAY ~*Chappell Roan*~ Forsaken Fans!!! Arson's Darlings neurodivergent kpop demon hunter fan Brony Minecraft Pros yaoi enjoyer
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                #9

                !UPDATE!


                MY BREAK BEGINS TOMORROW MORNING

                Why?

                I am feeling overwhelmed today.

                Why?

                I played soccer while constantly spitting up blood, struggling to breathe and barely able to run, all while being pushed and criticized by my family.

                ..Why?

                SHU-


                In all seriousness though, I truly need a break right now. As I mentioned, I was pushed way too hard while in a really bad physical state, and the constant criticism from my family almost made me break down a few times. I regret making the decision but I can't put my small appearances on this site ahead of my health anymore. (I made that last part sound really big but it isn't trust me)

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                • SupearManS SupearMan

                  !UPDATE!


                  MY BREAK BEGINS TOMORROW MORNING

                  Why?

                  I am feeling overwhelmed today.

                  Why?

                  I played soccer while constantly spitting up blood, struggling to breathe and barely able to run, all while being pushed and criticized by my family.

                  ..Why?

                  SHU-


                  In all seriousness though, I truly need a break right now. As I mentioned, I was pushed way too hard while in a really bad physical state, and the constant criticism from my family almost made me break down a few times. I regret making the decision but I can't put my small appearances on this site ahead of my health anymore. (I made that last part sound really big but it isn't trust me)

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                  @SupearMan On the bright side, I got some new beats I found lying around.

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                    #11

                    Get better soon bud 🧡

                    Making the community better, one day at a time. ♡

                    I am smart so you don't have to be ☆

                    I'm not a global mod ◇

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                      #12

                      Might take another break, maybe a month long. Ik it's long but my mental state it so bad I let out an hour long string of high pitch screams and screeches, I feel nasally af, my throat is in pain, and my lips are swollen. Do I wanna explain what happened? .......not here. (Idk why I feel like i'm overreacting and should just "let go")

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                        #13

                        (Btw i'll still be on for a bit before my break and during it I may be on time to time, but I won't be active, like replying, dm'ing, streaming, etc.)

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                          I forgot I was gonna do this.....yeah i'm still going on that break real soon

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                          • KiwiFarmsArkavelK Online
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                            yg bro?

                            Your Silly Autistic Costco Alien

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                            • KiwiFarmsArkavelK KiwiFarmsArkavel

                              yg bro?

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                              @KiwiFarmsArkavel Nope :']

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                                do you want a hug or smth

                                Your Silly Autistic Costco Alien

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                                  im listening to FNF Bewilderment cause im slowly dragging myself to insanity :3

                                  Your Silly Autistic Costco Alien

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                                  • SupearManS SupearMan

                                    @KiwiFarmsArkavel Nope :']

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                                    @SupearMan That's me and u both man

                                    HELP MEEEEEEEE

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                                    • KiwiFarmsArkavelK KiwiFarmsArkavel

                                      do you want a hug or smth

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                                      @KiwiFarmsArkavel Physical contact is a no no sowwy (It's 2:15 AM I need sleep-)

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                                      • KiwiFarmsArkavelK Online
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                                        not physical i meant like you feel like you just get a small hug ig but ye, get some rest tho alr and as a scenecore kid stuck in 2016 i can say this. Life sucks and reality sucks so why not bend it a little

                                        Your Silly Autistic Costco Alien

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                                        • SupearManS SupearMan

                                          (SCROLL TO THE END FOR THE DURATION)


                                          • Explanation:
                                            As much as this site has been a lifeline for me, I find myself in a position where I need to step away. I'm unsure of the exact reason, but for once, I feel it’s important to listen to my instincts. It might be my mental health—this site, though it’s often felt like the only thing holding me together, isn't enough anymore. I need to move beyond it, to not rely on it for my sense of stability. Another reason could be procrastination. Though I've been working harder lately, I still find myself getting distracted, not just here but by countless other things. The year is drawing to a close, and last year I was given a pass to move forward despite failing. I don’t want to find myself in that same situation again, especially with the real possibility of being held back. But it’s not just school. I have personal projects—shows, AMVs, songs, art—so many things either unfinished, barely started, or abandoned altogether. I want to finish these things, not because I feel obligated, but because I owe it to myself to create something meaningful that I can share, both here and with others on platforms like YouTube.

                                          A third reason for this break is a personal one. I want to be less awkward socially. I don’t want my interactions here to affect how I behave in real life. The way I act here is, in part, because I know I’ll likely never meet most of you in person (though there are a couple of exceptions). But those patterns are starting to bleed into real life, and I can’t allow that. Recently, I was called “the definition of disgusting and weird” by people I don’t even know, and it shook me more than I care to admit.

                                          (!VENTING ZONE!)

                                          I’ve been carrying a lot of emotional baggage, and I’m tired of it. My reputation has been in shambles since pre-K, and it's followed me relentlessly over the years. I’ve spent so much time mired in emotional chaos, in and out of depressive episodes, that I no longer know how to break the cycle. It’s exhausting. I tell myself to “be in the moment” and “life’s too short to spend it moping,” but I’m a hypocrite. I never truly live; I just exist, sinking into my own sadness and frustration. Too many nights have been spent just moping, as if it’s the only option left.

                                          I feel like I’m walking on thin ice with the people I care about. My dad recently called me an asshole, I haven’t spoken to Tommy in days, I hurt @kasanetetofan, even though I never intended to. And that’s just the surface of it. I regret so many things: I never told my grandmother I loved her or even hugged her before she passed away in 2021. I’ve hurt my crush from last year, and I fear I might be doing the same again this year. I’ve lashed out at my family, causing pain I can never take back. I’ve scared my friends, made them cry, and been the reason for several friendships falling apart.


                                          • Duration:
                                            At least one week, though it’s not fixed so it could vary.
                                            I’ll be around for the next two days as much as I can, but after 12 AM on Monday, don’t expect to see me here.
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                                          @SupearMan ok /j

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