I need a break...
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not physical i meant like you feel like you just get a small hug ig but ye, get some rest tho alr and as a scenecore kid stuck in 2016 i can say this. Life sucks and reality sucks so why not bend it a little
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- Explanation:
As much as this site has been a lifeline for me, I find myself in a position where I need to step away. I'm unsure of the exact reason, but for once, I feel itās important to listen to my instincts. It might be my mental healthāthis site, though itās often felt like the only thing holding me together, isn't enough anymore. I need to move beyond it, to not rely on it for my sense of stability. Another reason could be procrastination. Though I've been working harder lately, I still find myself getting distracted, not just here but by countless other things. The year is drawing to a close, and last year I was given a pass to move forward despite failing. I donāt want to find myself in that same situation again, especially with the real possibility of being held back. But itās not just school. I have personal projectsāshows, AMVs, songs, artāso many things either unfinished, barely started, or abandoned altogether. I want to finish these things, not because I feel obligated, but because I owe it to myself to create something meaningful that I can share, both here and with others on platforms like YouTube.
A third reason for this break is a personal one. I want to be less awkward socially. I donāt want my interactions here to affect how I behave in real life. The way I act here is, in part, because I know Iāll likely never meet most of you in person (though there are a couple of exceptions). But those patterns are starting to bleed into real life, and I canāt allow that. Recently, I was called āthe definition of disgusting and weirdā by people I donāt even know, and it shook me more than I care to admit.
(!VENTING ZONE!)
Iāve been carrying a lot of emotional baggage, and Iām tired of it. My reputation has been in shambles since pre-K, and it's followed me relentlessly over the years. Iāve spent so much time mired in emotional chaos, in and out of depressive episodes, that I no longer know how to break the cycle. Itās exhausting. I tell myself to ābe in the momentā and ālifeās too short to spend it moping,ā but Iām a hypocrite. I never truly live; I just exist, sinking into my own sadness and frustration. Too many nights have been spent just moping, as if itās the only option left.
I feel like Iām walking on thin ice with the people I care about. My dad recently called me an asshole, I havenāt spoken to Tommy in days, I hurt @kasanetetofan, even though I never intended to. And thatās just the surface of it. I regret so many things: I never told my grandmother I loved her or even hugged her before she passed away in 2021. Iāve hurt my crush from last year, and I fear I might be doing the same again this year. Iāve lashed out at my family, causing pain I can never take back. Iāve scared my friends, made them cry, and been the reason for several friendships falling apart.
- Duration:
At least one week, though itās not fixed so it could vary.
Iāll be around for the next two days as much as I can, but after 12 AM on Monday, donāt expect to see me here.
@SupearMan ok /j
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@SupearMan sure buddy /j
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@SupearMan Ok I can't make up my mind but i'm in a way better mood so i'm calling this off till I feel like shit again :+1: (might be tomorrow idk)
I make dumb comics cuz lol
Any Pronouns rlly
Status:
Green: Happi Happi happi
Yellow: Streaming
Red: Losing it
Gray: Offline -
Alright
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ENRI NOOOOOO :c I'll miss you, take as long as ya needdddd we'll be here, arms open at anytime
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@SupearMan Ok I can't make up my mind but i'm in a way better mood so i'm calling this off till I feel like shit again :+1: (might be tomorrow idk)
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Ameris You Look Like A Completely Different Person
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Ameris You Look Like A Completely Different Person
@KG3M0 Nuh-uhhh... (call me Lianette, Lia or Nettie now)
Green: Online
Yellow: Busy or Studying
Red: DNI please.
Gray: Offline or lurking
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damn... get better soon <3
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@KG3M0 Nuh-uhhh... (call me Lianette, Lia or Nettie now)
@nettievibez4uu_ Nuh-uh i have "nettie :copyright:" copyrighted
I'm adding anything weird you say to the wall of shame
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@nettievibez4uu_ Nuh-uh i have "nettie :copyright:" copyrighted
@jainacore NOOOOO I NEEDA CHANGE MY USER NOW AHHHH
