sleep? no...(vent)

Yanderemenhera

i have bad nightmares and im just getting next to no sleep. i think its negatively affecting me, the last time i slept like trying to get a good amout of sleep the nightmares were so bad i wet the bed. i'm 16, yes, but the trauma is that bad thatmakes that happen sometimes... i don't really know what to do at this point, do i keep this caffeine extreme lifestile up? or do i try to sleep. that i do not know. "speak to a therapist" you might say, but that is part of the issue, i have bad nightmares about mental hospitals and the such. and i refuse to speak to the people who are part of the problem. and i have nightmares about things i couldn't even to begin to mention on here.....
i'm sleep deprived and kinda lost. the only thing so far i have found is sleeping medicine, it forces me to sleep regardless, but even then its still hard. i have no idea what to do anymore, its 7 something am... sorry for this, but does anyone have sleeping advice?...

Yanderemenhera

im just so tired of this

szczęśliwy

I mean honestly there's different problems here. Sure you could just have melatonin or something, but clearly the problem is something trauma/stress related. My better advice would be to think about why you have these nightmares, and maybe try to work though it (I'd say speak to a therapist but I know)

Yanderemenhera

yeah, my consolers (i have like 3, only one of them is actually a therapist) have tried to send me off to a facility so many times, i never told them anything ofc, but like, this last time when my mom tried to send me off bc i had made it very clear i didn't want to continue mental health services they just went a long with it. i begged them to just let me leave and go home,they just responded like customer services representatives. i eventually talked my way out of it when they were about to put in paper work to send me off. i spent 6+ hours just waiting to see a stupid lady who made the decision. i talked her out of it so the paper work wasn't sent. and this is just what they do. they know what legally questionable and morally wrong things go on in those places but that's what they seem to wanna put me through. they say "i care" and i'm getting close to snapping and telling them to go [censored] off and go ruin some other kids life. this is why i can't just go talk to a shrink.

Yanderemenhera

i think soon i'll try to get some medicine for sleep, i've never tried melitonin b4@danniltrifonov

w1ckedsticky1983

@danniltrifonov Don't think that'll work. I somewhat struggle with the same thing, and more times often than not; bringing clarity to your situation will just have you sitting there thinking, "Damn. Ts is uh crazy :3" You'll probably sleep even less since you're so occupied on tryna find where it stems from.
Idk, maybe it's better to be oblivious to the root causes, in @Yanderemenhera case