Im not doing okay

KiwiFarmsArkavel

recently ive been struggling w SH tendencies n i want to be able to control them, i have ppl i care abt n dont wanna upset if i relaspe
i need advice. what else can i do?
ive also lost all motivation and have been bed rotting wth no plans to clean my disater of a room. i feel like theres nobody to reach out too.

I also somewhat suffer the same fate, but what I do to counter it is to think some huge things you can do to change the world

Kaylazz

i hear ice cubes can help w sh, as in feeling the pain like @seal said.
like they numb ur wrists or smth

Laner2018

@Kaylazz Have you reached out to any mental health resources about this? 💔

Kaylazz

@Laner2018 multiple times, ive been put on medication but all it does is make th thoughts worse. (I will delete this specific reply if it violates TOS.)

seal

@Kaylazz still technically sh but try pinching urself. if u do big pinches it hurts more, if u do tiny pinvhes it hurts less
try ur best to take care of ur wounds as u may have to seek professional help if they get infected
try to start in tiny steps like atleast piling dirty clothes into one area

wrenthebest

sometimes i draw scars to like get the satisfaction
idk if it works for ppl tho

NeverLetMeDown

@Kaylazz

I doubt you have been put on the right medication, then

Nonbinary_wolf

When I struggled with it I used rubber bands. I put them on my wrist, pulled them, and released. It hurts u without leaving permanent marks, tho it does leave raised red lines where the band hit for a few hours afterward.

french_fry_guy

I struggle too, so what I do is A) cut up paper or B) press an ice cube onto my wrists/run my hands through cold water

french_fry_guy

I hope you feel better <3

xx.hal0

when i have the urge to sh i put my hands in ice water but ik it dosnt always help, i do hope you heal luv

Cicadasandbats

The situation you're in is probably one of the shittiest places to be. Now I don't know exactly how you feel, but from my own experience .. no matter how much you WANT to stop, WANT to be productive, WANT to get up, when it's actually time to, it feels impossible ..

SH is a stubbornly fucked up thing that's hard to get out of, but modivation to stop is the most important thing, and it looks like you got one. Now if you can't stop immediately, that's ok. But at the least you need to ease out of it. Less and less, till it's barely pain at all. Ice, rubber bandd, pinching, and nail scratching are all good suggestions!!

I hope you get out of this, even if it takes time <3

xx.hal0

@Cicadasandbats i admire how you worded that

french_fry_guy

@xx.hal0 same, so inspirational /gen

w1ckedsticky1983

A method that sometimes works is placing multiple pieces of duck tape on the places where you harm and repeatedly rip off the tape until you're satisfied. It works for the pain if you usually don't cut super, duper deep normally when SHing. It helps to take at least a few(5-10) deep breaths before ripping off each piece of tape as well. Not sure what to do if you feel like you need to see blood though,,, (not saying you do, but often times people don't feel like the SH is 'good' enough till they bleed).

Rubber bands don't work well for me because it doesn't hurt enough, but with the duck tape, it can help you release the adrenaline and calm down when you're in the moment.

Anyways, hope this helps and I hope your mental state gets better 🐌♥️

french_fry_guy

@w1ckedsticky1983 Im gonna be so fr I thought I was crazy or messed up for thinking that it wasnt good enough omg... other ppl think that too??

w1ckedsticky1983

@french_fry_guy nah, it's common lol. The sting doesn't last long enough with the rubber bands, I feel like it's only good if you SH once in a blue moon. It's nothing to be ashamed of, I would just advise to slowly and slowly stop SHing if it's difficult for you to stop immediately. It's just like quitting any other addiction, distract yourself or at least tone it down day by day until you don't feel the need to do it anymore 🐌

I've actually been sober for a few months I believe (I haven't been keeping track) PX

french_fry_guy

@w1ckedsticky1983 I genuinely feel like people dont take it as seriously as other addictions or see it as one at all. What I tend to do is SH for a week or two, go cold turkey and have something similar to a manic episode, and then relapse. When it's all said and done Im so ashamed of myseld for it.

w1ckedsticky1983

@french_fry_guy literally. That was me for a while before I quit. It sucked so bad because either I would cut multiple times a day, or just randomly take a break for varied amounts of time before I would have a breakdown or I split and then the cycle would just start all over again. Same for other methods of SH, I did it all tbh

french_fry_guy

@w1ckedsticky1983 same. Deep scars, 2nd degree burns, picking at my skin, pulling my hair, DRINKING???? At some point in time Ive done those sadly

I hope you're ok tho ^^
Dont worry abt me, sorry for the mini vent