I need a break...
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- Explanation:
As much as this site has been a lifeline for me, I find myself in a position where I need to step away. I'm unsure of the exact reason, but for once, I feel it’s important to listen to my instincts. It might be my mental health—this site, though it’s often felt like the only thing holding me together, isn't enough anymore. I need to move beyond it, to not rely on it for my sense of stability. Another reason could be procrastination. Though I've been working harder lately, I still find myself getting distracted, not just here but by countless other things. The year is drawing to a close, and last year I was given a pass to move forward despite failing. I don’t want to find myself in that same situation again, especially with the real possibility of being held back. But it’s not just school. I have personal projects—shows, AMVs, songs, art—so many things either unfinished, barely started, or abandoned altogether. I want to finish these things, not because I feel obligated, but because I owe it to myself to create something meaningful that I can share, both here and with others on platforms like YouTube.
A third reason for this break is a personal one. I want to be less awkward socially. I don’t want my interactions here to affect how I behave in real life. The way I act here is, in part, because I know I’ll likely never meet most of you in person (though there are a couple of exceptions). But those patterns are starting to bleed into real life, and I can’t allow that. Recently, I was called “the definition of disgusting and weird” by people I don’t even know, and it shook me more than I care to admit.
(!VENTING ZONE!)
I’ve been carrying a lot of emotional baggage, and I’m tired of it. My reputation has been in shambles since pre-K, and it's followed me relentlessly over the years. I’ve spent so much time mired in emotional chaos, in and out of depressive episodes, that I no longer know how to break the cycle. It’s exhausting. I tell myself to “be in the moment” and “life’s too short to spend it moping,” but I’m a hypocrite. I never truly live; I just exist, sinking into my own sadness and frustration. Too many nights have been spent just moping, as if it’s the only option left.
I feel like I’m walking on thin ice with the people I care about. My dad recently called me an asshole, I haven’t spoken to Tommy in days, I hurt @kasanetetofan, even though I never intended to. And that’s just the surface of it. I regret so many things: I never told my grandmother I loved her or even hugged her before she passed away in 2021. I’ve hurt my crush from last year, and I fear I might be doing the same again this year. I’ve lashed out at my family, causing pain I can never take back. I’ve scared my friends, made them cry, and been the reason for several friendships falling apart.
- Duration:
At least one week, though it’s not fixed so it could vary.
I’ll be around for the next two days as much as I can, but after 12 AM on Monday, don’t expect to see me here.
@SupearMan ok /j
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@SupearMan sure buddy /j
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@SupearMan Ok I can't make up my mind but i'm in a way better mood so i'm calling this off till I feel like shit again
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Alright
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ENRI NOOOOOO :c I'll miss you, take as long as ya needdddd we'll be here, arms open at anytime
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@SupearMan Ok I can't make up my mind but i'm in a way better mood so i'm calling this off till I feel like shit again
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Ameris You Look Like A Completely Different Person
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Ameris You Look Like A Completely Different Person
@KG3M0 Nuh-uhhh... (call me Lianette, Lia or Nettie now)
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damn... get better soon <3
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@KG3M0 Nuh-uhhh... (call me Lianette, Lia or Nettie now)
@nettievibez4uu_ Nuh-uh i have "nettie
" copyrightedI'm adding anything weird you say to the wall of shame
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@nettievibez4uu_ Nuh-uh i have "nettie
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